Just before i head to bed sson, i feel like coming back here to write something. Dust has been growing on this blog, not much people have been coming here to read my blog too... I think it'll be nice to be active over here once again.

I think it's rather scary when i think about school. 2 months have past since the semester start, and exam is going to come in 3 weeks time. that's very very fast! just a blink of the eyes, everything's gone & everything's changed. Certan days, i will walk pass this neighbourhood primary school and thought to myself that it feels like it was just yesterday when i was in my primary school uniform, carry the heavy back walking from school to home. I would be 12 years old when i was doing that... and now i'm almost 23 years old.

Recently, this thinking just came to my mind... about friends, about the people we mix with. It's important to choose the right friends to be in your life, people that will stay alongside with you. People who are not just faithful, but spiritual too. Someone who's with you, someone who will walk in the same level of spirituality, someone who is able to bring you higher, someone who won't pull you down. This thought changes my lifestyle. I see the importance of choosing the right activities to do at the right time. I want someone who is my peer, someone whom i can share my life with. This makes me decide that i have to filter out some people & activities from my life. I still love the people, but i just won't choose give most of my time to them. I feel more liberated, i feel happier. I have more time to do the things that i want to do. I feel that these activities will bring me forward. And because of that, i start to have more time alone & i realised how i really enjoy solitude. Of course, i still love all the quality & fun time with many many friends.

Everyday seems to pass so quickly. It's about 6 months already. Things never got better, and probably i have given up most of the hopes already. We are out of each other lives. I'm getting used to the truth that i'm out of your life faster that you are out of my life. Somehow, it always hurt a little everytime when your have those little actions behind to try to force me to push you out of my life. You're succeeding. Our friendships has turned to a thin line which i almost couldn't see anymore. I'm telling myself everyday that do i know you before, and everyday im still questioning myself why does everything become this way. Yea, i have never gone through a day without thinking about all these things. But i'm not sad anymore.

Just like what Dr. AR Bernard had said, 'don't confuse movement with progressing.' I feel that i have been moving too much, but not progressing. I got weary easily. Visions aren't so clear to me. I begin to rearrange my lifestyle, my priority, my life.. do things that i want to do, learn things that i want to learn... i feel that i'm progressing once again. :D