My days will be better!

I want to be positive & get more stronger this year. emotionally, mentally & spiritually... Heartbreaks, hurts & disappointments, who can i lift it up to other than my heavenly Father.

This morning was a disaster. My heart hurt like mad... All the cold wars with my mum since before my birthday last year and it only got better few days ago. My mum just go mad this morning & had a fight with my brother. My dad came back home when my mum was spilling all her unhappiness and anger on me after my brother left the house. My dad came home and add in to it. The expectations, the thoughts, the words that they had said towards me really hurts. really really hurts... Have i never care about my mum? Have i not help in housework? not often but i really had... and they have never realised... Times when i am washing dishes & washing clothes, they can just walk pass and seems like they didn't see anything. when times im not doing anything, resting at home, they can say i have never done anything at home... How sad...? They can always compare me with those earning big bucks at my age, and said that at the age of 24, i only know how to play... useless... have i been playing? no i didnt...

well, they had much more things...

I want peace in my family. What can i do...? God says, "pray..." I felt that God is telling me this 'Ask and it shall be given, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be open.' All the hurts, i only can lift it up to Him & look to Him...

Next, about a friend... I think we are drifting further from each other... Today, how much have we really talked when we met each other? not really much... almost nothing...

Another friend... Seeing & spending time with you, chatting with you everyday, or almost everyday during those bus rides & train rides has been such a joy. i wonder what is it like to our friendship when such chances has gone. And it's going to end real soon... What kind of friend am i to you? I am kinda afraid that we will go back what we were like before... see each other without a Hi...