It's just feelings on the inside that somehow it gets down. Some friends that you treasure didnt seem to have you in their heart, in their mind. Friends whom i always treasure, you don't really get a place in their heart. I see the number of encouragements and concerns that i received from the number of people, and i compare mine with the friends who are around me that are getting. Yea, recently i have been comparing myself with my friends. Friends that important to you left you. Even probably i have been busy and my hands got lose holding them, did they really put in the effort to hold me back? How am i in the eyes of others? I want to be more 'I'. I want to be more open to sharing my thoughts, my jokes, my ups & downs. I want to be more open up. Yes, im feeling sad & disappointed because of all these. These are the voice of the devil that makes me feel inadequate. :( Im tired of chasing after people (friendship & relationship), i wish people would chase after me instead.

I got to focus on God and not on people and the world. Because God doesn't disappoint us, but people will. So i really got to focus on Him, focus on His promises. You don't make friends to get popular or see how popular you are, but you are blessed when you have a friend that stands by you through your ups & downs and never leave you.

Hang on to psitive confession!
Got to focus on spiritual stuff!!
:)