Sunday, November 30, 2003.

*aRgHzZ* sO hApPy mAnZ!! tOdAy jUz rEcEiVe ~eDuSaVe ScHoLaRsHiP aWaRd~ letter... receive this the 2nd time liaoz... top 10%.. But i don't know what position i am lehz.. And even more unaware that this award is base on 'N' level prelim or 'N' level result...

*tHiNkiNg...*

{ 4:04:00 PM }

Saturday, November 29, 2003.

a sToRy tHat i FoUnD, wAnTiNg tO sHaRe wiTh u All...

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the
girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before and
handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me
a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want
her to know that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know
why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She
was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her
love had broke her heart. She asked me to come
over because she didn't want to be alone, so I
did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared
at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2
hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags
of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends, I love her
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My
date is sick" she said; he's not going to go
well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we
made a promise that if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as "best friends". So
we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I
was standing at her front door step! I stared at
her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her
crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she
isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then
she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I
want her to know that I don't want to be just
friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I
could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as
her perfect body floated like an angel up on
stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be
mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I
knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her
head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best
friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm
just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is
getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and
drive off to her new life, married to another
man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see
me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove
away, she came to me and said "you came!". She
said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want
to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want
to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too
shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a
girl who used to be my "best friend". At the
service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in
her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he
doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I
want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't
want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just
too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would
tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I
cried.

{ 2:23:00 PM }

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue..

2. Be serious or be funny?: depends on situation
lorz..

3. Boxers or briefs?: boxer..

4. Whole or skim milk?: skim..

5. Single or Taken?: SinGle... hope to be taken..
GeEz..

6. Simple or complicated?: simple lahz..

7. Law or anarchy?: law..

8. Flowers or angels?: aNgeLz...

9. Grey or gray?: iz the same.. but write grey
usually..

10. Read or write?: both lohz.. write can train
my handwritting.. read??

11. Color or black-and-white photo?: colour lahz..

12. Sunrise or sunset?: sunrise..

13. M&M's or Skittles?: M&M's...

14. Rap or rock?: both oso like..

15. Stay up late or wake up late?: both also
got..

16. TV or Radio? tv most of da time..

17. Is it POP or SODA?: wat's tat?

18. X or O in Tic-tac-toe?: o....

20. Eat an apple or an orange? apple..

21. What came first the chicken or the egg?:
me think is chicken.. cuz God created animals
mahz, nv say iz eggs.. haaz.. wat if the egg come
out to be a hen..??

22. Hot or Cold?: cold..

24. Tall members of the opposite sex or short?
tall ba..

25. Sun or moon?: moon.. cuz sun is so eyes
peircing.. got moon means nite time, got stars..

26. Emerald or ruby?: RubY~

28. Left or right?: for what??

29. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?: 1 beSt
fRen...

30. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?:
chocolate of cuz..

31. High or Drunk?: DruNK...

32. Green beans or carrots?: GrEeN bEaNs!!!

33. Low fat or fat free?: FaT fReE...

34. What is your biggest fear in the world?:
dun wan to fear of anything.. muz hav faith in
Jesus..

(no Qn35?)

36. Kids or no kids?: KiDs...

37. Cat or dog?: cat..

38. Half empty or half full?: isn't the same??

39. Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup..

40. Hard cover books or soft cover books?: dun
bother.. as long as iz attractive..

41. Newspaper or magazine?: MagAziNe...

42. Sandals or sneakers?: SandAls...

43. Wonder or amazement?: ...??

44. Red car or white car?: white..

45. Happy and poor or sad and rich?: happy &
rich.. hahaz..

46. Singing or dancing?: both..

47. Hugging or Kissing?: depends..

48. Corduroy or plaid?: corduroy??

49. Happy or sad?: HapPy...

50. Purple or green?: purple.. colour of
lavender.. ^.^

51. A year of hot sex or a lifetime of
friendship?: i rAthEr hAve fRenz...

{ 2:19:00 AM }

~~ a sad but touching story...

Her hair was up in a ponytail

Her favorite dress tied with a bow.

Today was Daddy's Day at school,And she couldn't
wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,That she probably
should stay home.

Why the kids might not understand, If she went to
school alone.

But she was not afraid;She knew just what to say.

What to tell her classmates Of why he wasn't
there today.

But still her mother worried, For her to face
this day alone.

And that was why once again,She tried to keep her
daughter home.

But the little girl went to school, Eager to tell
them all.

About a dad she never sees

A dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back, For
everyone to meet.

Children squirming impatiently, Anxious in their
seats.

One by one the teacher called, A student from the
class.To introduce their daddy.

As seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,Every child
turned to stare.

Each of them was searching, For a man who wasn't
there.

"Where's her daddy at?" She heard a boy call out.

"She probably doesn't have one," Another dared to
shout.

And from somewhere near the back, She heard a
daddy say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her, As she smiled up at
her Mom.

And looked back at her teacher, Who told her to
go on.

And with hands behind her back, Slowly she began
to speak.

And out from the mouth of a child, Came words
incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here, Because he lives so
far away. But I know he wishes he could be, Since
this is such a special day.

>>>

>>>
And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to
know. All about my daddy, And how much he loves
me so. He loved to tell me stories

He taught me to ride my bike.

He surprised me with pink roses,

And taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes, And ice cream in
a cone.

And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing
here alone. Cause my daddy's always with me, Even
though we are apart I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up, And lay
across her chest.

Feeling her own heartbeat, Beneath her favorite
dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, Her
mother stood in tears.

Proudly watching her daughter, Who was wise
beyond her years. For she stood up for the love
of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for
her, Doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down, Staring
straight into the crowd.

She finished with a voice so soft, But its
message clear and loud.


I love my daddy very much, He's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here, But heaven's just
too far. You see he was a fireman And died just
this past year When airplanes hit the towers And
taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I
close my eyes,It's like he never went away."

And then she closed her eyes, And saw him there
that day.

And to her mother's amazement, She witnessed with
surprise.

A room full of daddies and children, All starting
to close their eyes.


Who knows what they saw before them, Who knows
what they felt inside.

Perhaps for merely a second, They saw him at her
side.

"I know you're with me Daddy," To the silence she
called out.

And what happened next made believers, Of those
once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,For each of
their eyes had been closed.

But there on the desk beside her, Was a fragrant
long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,

That heaven is never too far. They say it takes a
minute to find a special person, an hour to
appreciate them,a day to love them, but then an
entire life to forget them.

Take the time to live and love. Until eternity.
God bless.

There were 10,000 children that lost a parent on
9/11

{ 1:56:00 AM }

Name: Candice Soh Siew Ling
Nickname: tang guo (chinese of sweet~)
Time started: ...
Birthdate: 29/12/1987
Home town: Bukit batok & Jurong west
Siblings: 1 younger brother
Righty or lefty: Lefty

~~~~~Your Looks~~~~~
Hair Colour: Black.. but not really dark
Eye Colour: brown
Do you wear contacts or glasses: non usually.. only wear glasses at sch
Do you have any piercings: yUpZ..
Do you wear any rings: seldom
What shoes do you wear: usually slippers

~~~~~Just Lately~~~~~
How are you today: ok lohz..
What pants are you wearing: shorts..
What shirt are you wearing: cotton T-Shirt..
What does your hair look like at the moment:
as usual.. let down..
What song are you listening to right now: not listening to any..
What was the last thing you ate: milk
How is the weather right now: cool & dark.. cuz nite mahz..
The last person you talked to on the phone:
Wan lin ba..

~~~~~More About You~~~~~
What are the last four digits of your phone?:3981
If you were a crayon what color would you be?
sky blue
Have you ever almost died: no...
Best advice anyone's given to you: whole bk of bible!!
What sport do you hate the most: hockey..
How many phones do you have in your house: hm phones.. 3, hp.. 3 also
Do you have your own phone line: no.. hp??Animals: hamster, cat,puppies..
Place for a dream house: place?
Have you ever sprained/broken/fracured a
bone: sprained twice..
Who would you tell your dreams to: myself.. unless anybody ask..
Who is the loudest friend: xue jia.. hahaz.. who else?
Who is the quietest friend: farizah.. very very quiet..

~~~~~You and Love~~~~~
Do you believe in love: Yupz!!
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Yesh..
Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: nope.. but hope to hav 1..
Did you send this to your crush: post tiz in bulletin.. hope he will see it lohz..
What song do you want played at ur
funeral: ...
Lights on/off: on
Do you like snow, sun, rain: snow
Summer or winter: winter
White or chocolate milk: white..
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: both oso dun like
Skiing or boarding: both nv try before.. i tink skiing ba..
Day or night: night
Cake or pie: cake
Diamond or pearl: diamond
Sunset or sunrise: sunrise

~~~~~~Have You Ever~~~~~
Loved someone so much it made you cry: got..
Smoked: no.. hate tat smell manz!!
Time finished: huh??

Do this and paste it at ur Bulletin Board..Enjoy!

{ 1:32:00 AM }

Friday, November 28, 2003.

Initially, i was quite excited for going to the snow city... But the sky seems wanted to go contrary on us...

*haiz* Rain like splashing all the water down to the earth, hundred & thousand of years never rain already...

Sit at the sits at jurong east control station for quite long time, waited for the heavy pour to abate... But never stopped... Thus, i suggested to go to the popular... Wander around there.. look at cds & books... Inside my bag there were quite many things.. my water bottle, jacket, discman, bible etc... It was really a tortured for my shoulder, that i had to keep changing carrying bag from my left shoulder to right & then from right to left... HaiZ.. = (

Later the rain still did not stop.. but getting smaller... We crossed the street, went to the je entertainment centre.. LoOk around.. Then went outside, flipped through the books showing, for selling... We came across a book on reading our palm to know how is our lives etc.. quite interesting...

Later.. we went back lohz.. go on our seperated ways.. Jas took buses, wantedto go home.. Then me took mrt going to chc...

Upon reaching BL mrt station, wan lin called me... She asked me if i was free on that time, asked me to go over to the chc rooftop... I agree lohz.. My plan for going jp changed.. So took bus to chc.. Jason, wan lin & weiyi were there practicing guitar... It was quite boring for me at there... nothing to do... The service started at 7 something pm or 8 pm lohz... Then ended at 10pm.. Discussed about the camp after service.. not much lahz... We went home later that...

*haiz* miSseD HoLLaNd v. lAsT ePiSoDe.. aNy1 cAn TeLL mE wAt'S tHe LaSt ePiSoDe sToRy...!??

{ 11:25:00 PM }

Thursday, November 27, 2003.

These few days never update blog... because nothing special to write... so sianz... stay at home, didn't go out with friends or what...

But on tuesday, i went out to have dinner with my grandma, & other relatives at tuas... Then wednesday afternoon, went to my cousin house... My grandma is there, & i went there to play with my cousin's baby daughter... GeEz.. =D

Yupz.. that's all... nothing much to mention about...

{ 11:27:00 PM }

Monday, November 24, 2003.

... hmm.. went to jas blog & saw tiz quiz.. i took it & found it quite true for me... Actually same result as hers... tiz shows we gd frens are quite close personality... hehez... *.*

What animal are you? Take the test!

{ 11:58:00 PM }

Today morning... went to east coast park... It's a choir outing then... We went there to play games, etc... My few friends & me can say is in-charge of this outing one because we are seniors of the choir liao mahz... So we don't need to play the games... We see them play only... Somehow a little boring lahz...

After playing 2 games, we gathered at the shelter sang songs lohz... We sang "guan huai fang shi" with the accompanied of guitar played by Ms chua... Then we all sabotage Ms chua & Ms lee to sing a song... hAhAz.. They had no choice but to sing... and Ms chua played the guitar... I think she played the guitar very well lohz... After the song, we sang "guan huai fang shi" again lohz... This time the guitar was played by Ms lee... Honestly, i think she didn't play as well as Ms chua played lahz... heEx... ~mE bAd eHz~ =p
We continued the one last game after that... "dog & bone"

At about noon time, we had our lunch... Really MUST thanks huiyi for providing us the bee hoon... quite nice lahz... With some other foods like hotdogs, chicken nuggets etc...

Then... it's our own free time!! This was the part of the whole outing that i like most... Many of us went to rent for bicycle actually... So did me, ming kian & soh geok lahz... GeEx... me long time never cycle liaoz... So we 3 cycle to the part where we had our class bbq 6 months ago... SoOo memorable~ We then sat at the rock, listening to the calling of the sea.. waves overlapped one another gently... the sea breeze blew unresistantly on my face... ~WaH~ ¦-D However just stayed there for a short while, we had to go back to assemble... haiz... Hope that our free time can be much more longer...
Hmmm... actually when we were travelling on our bicycle, the feeling to me was also quite nice... quite cooling wohz... But i still love the feeling when sitting on the soft white sand or anywhere near the water... as long as it's not polluted.. very beautiful... then thinking of something or don't think of anything, just feel the way the breeze blew towards me.. I hope that 1 day i could sit on a beach with the guy i love & ... GeEz... =P

Then when we all gathered together liaoz... took photos.. We seniors hide at the back... WaHahaHa~ EhZ... then go back to sch liaoz lohz & then all went home...

{ 7:01:00 PM }

i pErsOnaLLy inTrO tiZ fLaSh.. Monya animation...
ReaLLy... SoOoOo CuTeZzZzZ!!! =Þ


- Opening -

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- Ep. 6 -

- Ep. 7 -

- Ep. 8 -

- Valentine Special -

{ 6:26:00 PM }

Sunday, November 23, 2003.

"Love is the greatest feeling you will ever have, yet it is also one of the greatest sorrows. There is so much suffering, but then there are times when the crying, pain, and heartache is worth it. Those moments are perfect, they are right. Those moments make all the suffering worth while. It's those moments we should live for."

"Falling in love is easy, staying in love requires work."

I love him & i know that what i have done for him maybe just a little... Everyday just keep sms him to show my care & concern for him... He may know or he may not know how much he stands in my heart... Whatever words he has said to me, i will never forget... Sometimes he maybe joking to me & he may thought that i also treat it as a joke, but i took those words seriously... really... (+, +)
"How have you be friends with someone when everytime you see them you want them even more?!"

" I'll give you the moon at night
I'll give you star that lights your eyes
I'll give you the sun that made just one more dawn
So another day may come
I'll give you my heart and soul
I'll be there to catch you when you fall
When you ask me what I give to you
I'll give it all "

I know that Love is looking at him/her and knowing that even if you can't be with him/her, you feel happy because he/she is happy with someone else... Even if you put in all your effort to give him/her, and you didn't get back anything in return, he/she still don't appreciate your effort & still don't love you, you will never feel regret for what you have done... Because at least you have put in effort & done something for him/her...

Thus, whatever i have done for him, i don't really expect something for return... After all, i will surely be downhearted if there's nothing in return but i will never regret for what i have put in for him...

"True love is indescribable, yet self-explanatory..."

"Let love come slowly. Don't constantly keep putting on the red light. Drive on yellow!"

Many people will think...
"I should tell you how I really feel, but I'm afraid of what you might say..."

When you really love a person, grab the opportunity and tell him/her... don't wait until the last moment of you life or even he/she has already disappear from your world, you still afraid to say out your feelings to the person... If you do, you will surely regret for your whole life that the person whom you let it stay in your heart so deep so deep, never know it...

"Love purely and be happy it came in your way. If it hurts you then be glad because you've been touched by Love."

{ 6:55:00 PM }

MoviEs i WanT tO wAtCh...
- xun zao zhou jie lun
- Lords of the rings

ThinGs i WaNna Buy...
- 1 month contact lens
- Toro's book: da kai wei yu kuan tou

ThiNkiNg oF...
- Him..
- about the camp
- the scary scary "N" level result (the day of getting our result is drawing near liaoz..)

{ 3:44:00 PM }

... sent so many sms to so many people, asking them to go for the camp... but most of them say they have to work, cannot go.. only few say they will comfirm with me again... haiz... so *sAdZ* =( Even the person i want most to go, cannot go... *sAdZ ×2* But happy that the second person i want most to go seems going... Hope so lohz... i really wish that i can bring many of my friends there...

There's still 1 week to go, so there's still hope for me... I believe that the people who turn up will be more than what i think... Everyday i will just pray, pray that Jesus will bring my friends to the camp, hope that many of my friends can go for the camp... I believe that i will see miracles... =P

{ 3:24:00 PM }

Saturday, November 22, 2003.

Morning.. at 8.30 am... *riNgS* woke up... still reluctant to get out of my bed... so tiReD eHz... But still crawl out of my bed... i then went to bathe to keep myself awake... waHahA... =p

Later at 9.30am, met wan lin at bl ctrl station... attend cell group meeting... At there.. play games, pray, & our leader, brother ming jing there to talk about the words of Jesus... =)
It end at about 12 ++ pm... but still we stayed there to chat & crack around... Later few of us strolled to jp, a restaurant below fish & co... sat there and chat... talked about cell group outings... actually do nothing really much there lohz...
2++ pm, nearly 3... i left & went back home... Because it was indeed boring... GeEz... =#
At home... even more boring... -_- hAhAz...

{ 6:35:00 PM }

Friday, November 21, 2003.

5 ++ pm.. Start to packed my bag... dilly-dally until about 6.15... then left my house and went to jp... I went there not really to shop but to buy some handphone stuffie, accessories & hang it on my handphone, let it dangling around... hEhEz... I just spent about 20 minutes loitered around jp, and then i went to take bus 179 & meet wan lin...

Actually, my main purpose of going out is going for friday service at chc lahz... Although it was really freezing inside the auditorium... the atmosphere, the liveliness, and the blessing that Jesus gave to everybody create warmth for us... haHaZ... =D yUpZ... When singing lively songs, many people just sang & leaping and jumping about their places... creating liveliness.. a way of showing how they love God...

When it ended... it was about 10pm... left the place at about 10++ pm... Upon reaching home, it was already quite late... nearly 11pm... But still thanks to God for everything & moment he gave me.. & never let it be wasted...

{ 11:25:00 PM }

... a qUiZ sEnD by My fRiEnD bY hanDpHoNe...



In your heart, what type of food do you think i am?

A. Floss candy
B. Chewing gum
C. Chocolate
D. Biscuit (*qu qi bing gan* don't know what's that, so don't know how to translate it...)
E. Cream cake
F. BBQ meat

...
...
...
...

Answer...

A- someone you miss
B- someone you think is bothersome
C- a friend
D- someone whom you can pour your troubles to
E- someone you treasure
F- someone you don't loathe

{ 5:10:00 PM }

Wednesday, November 19, 2003.

At noon, met same time & place with Jasmine... We went to the Singapore Blooms @ Esplanade... It was drizzling before we entered there... Hence, we walked around the Esplanade.. such as the library there... When the rain had ceased, then we proceeded there...

At there, really fascinated me... It was truely appealing... A large garden of different colours flowers... By seeing that, you would feel very pleasant & all your troubles and unhappiness will eventually fade away... hEhEz..(",) At the intemediate of viewing the flowers there, it started to drizzle again... fortunately, it ended shortly... We captured many photos at there, both only the sceneries & the pictures of us with the sceneries as background... and managed to take all the photo in a film... WaHaHa... =D

Later that... we wandered around the Esplanade... Sat at the long stretch of bench along the river side, chatted & gazed at the clear river water with it overlapping one another gently... ~~~~ Cool breeze swept by us continuously... enjoying the serenity at there... so grEat!! Then we went to the roof top.. From above, by viewing downwards, we could see the whole image of what was within our sight... It was 5 something pm then... So we went back home shortly later...

{ 10:36:00 PM }

Monday, November 17, 2003.

*eXciTeD* Jasmine accompanied me to go and buy new discman at afternoon... We 1st went to the IMM's best denki, but thought that those were quite expensive.. After that we went down to sim lim where sell lots of electric appliances... We walk 1 round there and i planned to buy it at the 2nd store we visited... =P The sony discman is in blue colour... nice.. and can say new model... YeAhZ!! ^.^



++ Still sms him everyday... Actually, what i really wish from him is juz a simple reply of his own words & not a forward message in return... HaAz.. don't know why... think me wierd ehz...? -.- lll ++

{ 10:41:00 PM }

Sunday, November 16, 2003.

Morning... went to service at City Harvest Church... The feeling was so wonderful!! This was the second time i went to service & attended cell group for 3 times liaoz.. hahaz...Through all these, my faith for Jesus has grown... HeEz... =P I believe that he has come into my life and change my life... YeAhZ... i LoVe Jesus!! hAhAz.... ^.^

Then afternoon, after i came back from service, i become so lazy... i had a shower then & threw myself into the bed... afetrnoon nap... -.- ZzZz... stayed in my dreamland till 6+ pm... = ) so siAnZ eHz...

{ 11:06:00 PM }

Friday, November 14, 2003.

... a very nice song in this drama, "At The Dolphin Bay"...


Saranghago Shipho - Wax

MY LOVE MY FAITH non ne gyotheso morojyo gajiman
nanun norur gurohge shwibge bonersuga obso
nege we ironungoya jongmar ireya hanungoni
gujo myommadi mallo da kud na borir sarangun anijanha
dashi negero dorawajwo noman sarang harsu idorog
jigum idero nar ne boryo dundamyon ne mam byonharjido molla

MY HEART MY DREAM non borsso narur ijunji mollado
ajig nanun nor ne gyotheso bonersuga obso
we nar tonaya man hesso we ni maumi byonhangoya
meirbam narur aphuge ullyodo shirhojijin anhnunde
dashi negero dorawajwo jebal nomu nuji anhdorog
negero dorawassurte gujarie guten obsurjido molla
dashi negero dorawajwo noman baraborsu idorog
oren gidarime jichyo ne sarangi memaruji anhdorog

Dashi hanbon noui gasume angyobodo shipho
saranghago shipho

{ 3:00:00 PM }

Saturday, November 08, 2003.

Wake up earlier than usual this morning for the youth cell group at weiqi house... This is the 2nd time i went cell group.. *lolx* =p I used to reject people when someone call me to go to church etc... hahaz.. don't know what's the reason after today i got persuaded by the people there... They were really benign that being with them like not being with friends whom i just knew... Just like i don't fear that there's nothing to say with them or being left out when with them, even wan lin is not there... GeEx =D YuPz.. so i'm going to service tomorrow at city harvest church... ^.^ Yeah.. thanks to God that i go through my day today smoothly... don't have any things that dispirited me today... :o)

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*YeAh* hE gOt rESpOnD tO mY gD niTe mEsSaGe tOdAy!! sO mAnY dAyS diDn'T rEsPoNd... buT kNoW 1 dAy hE wiLL... sO hApPy !!! aHhHhH... --- miZ hiM cRaziLy --- =Þ

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Your Heart is Orange


What Color is Your Heart?
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Friday, November 07, 2003.

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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Cb major - life is full of complecations,
commitments and organisation. You love to make
sure everything is just perfect, but sometimes
this can cause you to fall over your own feet.
A slightly unsociable key: why Cb major when
you could be the identical Bmajor? It has less
accidentals.


what key signature are you?
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{ 11:52:00 PM }

The Frail Old Woman
- By Norman17@aol.com

My parents recently bought a nice house on 180 acres. The house itself is not that old-built in the 1950s and sits up on top of a large hill surrounded by trees. Just recently, for no apparent reason, we've had a rash of strange happenings.

One day, while practicing her piano and becoming quite frustrated with a particular peice, my littlest sister, Monica, heard a voice behind her saying 'come on Monica, you can do it. Keep trying.' She turned around to see a frail old woman dressed in black sitting in a lounge chair. Monica screamed and got mom & dad but the lady was gone.

Not a week later, Monica was taking a shower in mom's bathroom when she happened to glance in the mirrior only to see the large face of this same woman staring at her. One of the reasons I believe that she wasn't' lying is because she ran screaming out of the bathroom, naked, into a gathering of my parents friends.

Over Thanksgiving, while saying grace at the dinner table, our china cabinets and everything in our dining room began to shake violently much to the dismay of our entire family.

During Christmas, we thought it would be fun to hypnotize Monica just for play. She started counting, then started skipping numbers and soon was actually in a different state. It wasn't 30 seconds later that she started screaming at the top of her lungs that 'She's going to kill me!!! She's got a knife!!! Oh my God!!!' When my dad finally woke her up, she could only remember a lady with red hair chasing her in our house with a knife.

The final blow was just recently. By final blow I mean it finally convinced those non-believers. My father has a favorite leather chair that he sits in day in and day out. It was in close proximity to a window which my mother opened for some air before a rain storm. Dad, worried about his chair getting wet, told mom not to open the window with his chair there or it will get ruined. The next morning, dad was up early for work and noticed that the den had been re-arranged so that his chair was no longer by the window but instead across the room. Dad left for work, thinking that all the kids did this the previous night. Mom woke up to the same thing and thought dad did it. It wasn't until dinner time that we discovered the room had been completely re-arranged (down to the magazine placements and table leaves) and not by human hands. We figured it was done between 10pm and 5 am in the morning. Not a sound was heard even though the kids' rooms are directly below the den and the den floor is hardwood. Mom and dad used to brush it off, but not anymore.

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Today.. keep hoping that my handphone will ~RiNg~ .. Expecting a call... That day went for interview for a job in metro... The person said that if we were to get the job, they will give us a call on friday... hahaz.. wait & wait & wait & wait...... Wish that it's not a disappointment after all... *_* °°°

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Thursday, November 06, 2003.

The Perfect Heart
- by Kirat Kyhalbu Gurung

One day a boy was standing on the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful and fresh heart in the valley. A large crowd gathered and they all accepted his heart for it was perfect heart. There was not any mark or defect in it.
The crowd agreed that it was the perfect and fresh heart that they had ever seen. The boy was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful, fresh, and perfect heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared in the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine?" The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly. It was full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed, and other pieces put in. But they didn't fit quite right and there were several rough edges. In fact, in some places there were deep scratch where whole pieces were missing.
The people started- how can he say his heart is perfect? And so on. The young man looked at old man's heart and saw its condition and laughed. He said, "You must be joking. Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect, and yours is broken and full of wound and tears."
"Yes" said the old man. "Yours is perfect looking and I would never deal with you. But you see every scares in my heart represents the person to whom I have given my love- I tear out my piece of my heart and give it to them and often they give me a piece of their heart, I fit into the empty place of my heart. But because the pieces are not exact, I have some rough edges, which I appreciate because they remind me the love we shared together. Some times I have given my heart away and they didn't. So, I have some empty scratch. Although these scratch are painful, it stays open. Reminding me of love I have for these people. And I hope someday they may return and fill the space I am waiting. So, now do you see what true beauty is?"
The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks, walked up to the old man and took a piece from his heart and handed to the old man with his trembling hands. The old man took his gift and placed it in his heart and took a piece from his and placed it in the wounded young man's heart.
It fits but not perfectly, as there were some rough edges.
The young man looked his heart. Not perfect anymore but more beautiful than he ever saw. Since love from old man flowed to his heart. They hold their arms and walked side by side together.

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Wednesday, November 05, 2003.

++ It has been many many days since he sms me "good night"... I miss him very much & wanted to see him... But i can't find a chance to ask him out... He is busy with his work... Although 2 days ago i got sms him and chatted with him, it was a short one... He said that he was working, so i did not want to disturb him... HaiZ.. he never be the 1st to sms me and chat with me... it has been always me the 1st one to start conversation... I had told him that he can call me to chat on phone when he is free.. but till now he still never call me... *sAdZ* =( Is that true that i can only see him once a year... I don't want that... Now i can only throw all my hopes on my birthday and his birthday to ask him out... *sAdZ ×2* ++

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Tuesday, November 04, 2003.

Morning meet my group members same time and place.. Sat at McDonald for about 5 hours.. We do the usual thing, discussed about the cafe thing at there.. At the noon, yuhua & ranald came... We chatted for a while and they left for work... We then walked around Jp to kill time as hui yun's sister still had not reached yet...
When her sister came, we took train to orchard for the metro job interview... And still, we have to wait for call on friday... If we do not get any reply on friday, we do not get the job...
Later, we went to visit yuhua & ranald who were working at paragon's metro... Just had a small chat with ranald and then we left shortly...
Huiyun and her sister were going to kinokuniya while shu hui wanted to go home... So i went to kinokuniya with them... It was boring at there and later both of them were meeting their another sister... Therefore i felt that i will be quite extra if i was to walk with the 3 sisters... So i wanted to went back... However before i was going home, i walked to the takashimaya where was selling food to buy some food back home... At there, by coincidence, i met shu hui... HehEz.. I thought she went back home already...
So after that, we went back together... In the train, both of us were half asleep... Too tired already...


^ Shu hui found out that in my handphone, i changed his name to..... lolx.. ^

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Monday, November 03, 2003.

Early in the morning, meet Shu hui they all, my group members to discuss about the cafe thing... Actually only 4 of us turned up, me, shu hui, wan lin & hao le... hahaz.. Then at about 11 something am, we excluding wan lin went to school to discuss that with Mrs kweh and ask her some questions regarding the doing of cafe lohz.. We asked boon seng to come and meet us at school, but reached 1 hour later... haAz.. We went up to library to see the about the place, how we going to set up the cafe... Then talk talk talk... =P
After that, outside the school, me, shu hui & hao le meet huiyun... We travelled to causeway point.. Me & shu hui took a trip there to look how's the work at metro... While hui yun went there for work...
After looking at there, shu hui & me travelled to plaza singapura for an job interview... At there, got many people of our age went for the same purpose as us... HeEx.. After filling in a form, the manager, which i think so, asked us to wait for his phone call by this week..
I was excited then as i thought that i will surely get this job... We walked down to the heeren to shop there... But both of us didn't really planned to buy anything & were already quite tired, we decided to go home after a short while...

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Sunday, November 02, 2003.

a VeRy NiCe SoNg In "At The doLpHiN bAy"....


~ JoUrNeY ~

It's a long long journey
Till i know where i'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And i don't know if i can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that i must hide
It's a long long journey
Till i find my way home to you

Many days i've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know i will falter i know i will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And i need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understand
I don't even know why
I do the things i do
When pride builds me up till i can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till i feel that i am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till i find my way home to you, to you

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Saturday, November 01, 2003.

YeAh!! Just watched finish "At the Dolphin Bay" volume 2... Seeing Tian Bian finally got together with her real family... Her grandpa and her "mum" had accepted her... She had a nice sister, Shan ni... Nobody loathed her anymore... The whole last episode was so touching. Tian bian had her first own concert... Man qing & Xiao gang were back together again.. After Tian Bian came back from her concerts around the world after 2 years, she met Ze ya at the winding road near "Teresa zhi jia"... A very beautiful ending... Only that, Shan ni still died from her illness... very sAdZ =..(


ThE nExT vCd i WaNnA bUy:
++ Kuang ai long juan feng

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