Tuesday, July 20, 2010.

God always put us through tests. It'll never be ending. When im going to get through this test, another one is being thrown to me to test my heart. But i believe God will never put me through situation that is beyond what i can handle. I'm gonna be stronger. I'm gonna be more bolder. I'm gonna be more spiritual, to go through all these tests...

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Friday, July 09, 2010.

Sometimes i wished i have more.
Sometimes i wished i am more.
Sometimes i wished i can be another person instead.

A person who has more talents, a person who has more endurance, a person who has less fears, a person who just shines whenever he/she goes, a person who is more hardworking, a person who has much more that i have.

The older i grow, the more i have to fight for in life. Isn't life when you're younger is much more simpler & easier?

It's never a good feeling of letting fears & procrastination hold you back.
You try to make that decision not to every single day, yet you are still fearing & procrastinating every single day.

every single day just get by so quickly that you can hardly catch up doing what you having been missing out for the past few years, weeks, days, hours & minutes.

I wish life can just slow down for a while. I wish loving God wholeheartedly & loving feverently can be... much simpler. it'll never be... if not, i'll never breakthrough where i am now...

KEEP ON GOING!!!

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Thursday, July 08, 2010.

It's been a long time since i really update this blog! haha! Life has been awesome! Talking about connect group... I love my girls ttm! I just really need to enlarge my capacity to be a leader to them & grow my passion of being a leader. I just feel that i am still not a very good leader. Still couldn't really handle a lot of things. I thank God for my cgl who always believe in everyone of us. Those days that i was really down & tired, she just pull me up & not out.

Bigger capacity, passion & love for God.. greater charisma, stronger inner man is what i really want. I think i have stay stagnant for very long, really need to grow again. I really want breakthrough in what i've been afraid off & those part of me that has been limiting myself to maximise my potential.

Work.. i can't believe i have worked more than a year over at PGPR already! great friends i have known! Finally i will be working until 1 Aug... no more extending of contract, because school is going to start! I just think that God has been good to me in this job. During those earlier days when i just started working here, i really hope to work just right before my school starts. and it's really happening now!!! ok! I must admit even though i wasn't in my best discipline & character there.. not even shining over there. but i thank God for these great colleagues!

Thoughts & emotions are like rollercoaster... There're many things that i choose to keep quiet. mind still thinking everyday & heart feels a lot... but i guess it's better to keep it to myself.

:))))

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Wednesday, July 07, 2010.

with tumblr,twitter,fb,wordpress etc around... i think blogger is losing its user & readership... lol!

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