Friday, August 31, 2007.

East Coast

my butt hurts.. lol..
Today i went east coast with hafizah, jagdish and jimmy.
We cycled.
have great time together.
have so much fun!

{ 12:16:00 AM }

Wednesday, August 29, 2007.

Today as i went for bs.. fivefold ministry lesson 2.. It makes me realised the substance that a Teacher should have. It just makes me want to study and know the word of God more, receiving more fresh and deeper revelations from God.. not just knowing the word, but really understand and internalize it, be the one who is able to teach the younger members. Even though not everyone will be a teacher, but everyone will have some ability to teach. I want to yearn more to Him, more discerning...
yeah...
=D

{ 11:12:00 PM }

It's holiday..
i want to go out.
anywhere...
but who can i ask out? =X

{ 12:23:00 AM }

Tuesday, August 28, 2007.

Anyone saw my wishlist???
Now that you have saw it,
you know what to do?
wahahaha..
=X

**i'm random**

{ 3:54:00 PM }

Monday, August 27, 2007.

Yesterday after service, shalynne, alvin, gerald and i went fellowship at changi airport. While fellowshipping, shalynne share with us so much things. Things that really make me go, "wwow..."

Do you know what's the power of confession? Your tongues and the words you speak can really change things. It's a real story from SOT. A group of SOT people, and they perpared 2 same bowl of rice. They wanted to try the power of confession. The 1st bowl of rice, they began to curse and keep cursing the rice. They speak all the negative words on that bowl of rice. For the 2nd bowl of rice, they blessed the rice. Then they left the 2 bowl of rice under same room and same condition overnight. The next day they came back and see the rice. Guess what?? The bowl of rice which was being cursed already turn bad and started to decompose, while the 2nd bowl of rice which was being blessed still remain at a good condition and edible. After u see this, isn't it amazing?? Therefore, we must stop confessing negatively on ourselves, but start to confess positively on ourselves and every situation we go through. What we confess is what we will receive.

Next, shalynne also share with us her revelation she had. The revelation about spiritual hunger. Spiritual hunger is like a vacuum cleaner. Vacuum cleaner sucks the dirt on the floor, everywhere. When you have spiritual hunger, you began to suck things, eg from sermon, discipleship etc.. Firstly, vacuum cleaner have different switches of different level power that you can adjust, the power you want it to suck the dirt. It potrays the different level of spiritual hunger of different people. The first level of switch is the lowest and the most basic level of spiritual hunger. You are hungry for spiritual things, but very basic. You will go for cell group meetings and services, you only suck in the words preach from there, and you are content.. you will say it's enough for me. But when vacuum cleaner is being switch to the highest level of power, then the sucking power will be so strong. It just sucks whatever that comes in its way. So when you are very hungry spiritually, you will just suck in everything that comes in your way. You suck in all the words preached, the words say by your leader, etc.. basically everything. Even you go for the dryest meeting ever, you will still say you want to receive something from God, and you received and touched.

Secondly the vacuum cleaner has a bag inside of it to contain all the dirts being sucked. The bag must be emptied before it can contain even more things. If not it will explode. So when you receive and suck in so much things, you must empty it, let it out, if not you will not have enough room to contain more. Then you will receive and receive even more things.

Thirdly, the vacuum cleaner is connect to the power adaptor to provide electricity for the vacuum cleaner to work. So what must we connect to so that we can be able to have the spiritual hunger. Electricity represent passion. Passion for God. How does this passion come to you? Through reading Bible, praying, fasting...

It's really all about your hunger for God that determines how much you will grow and move to. Which level of spiritual hunger are you at?

I can say that i am really hungry for God. Not at the lowest level but not at the highest level, maybe middle. I know sometimes i just get complacent over things. Sometimes when it's a dry meeting, i don't have the attitude of still wanting to receive. However, i want to be more hungry for God. I want to read the Bible more, pray more, fast more!

{ 12:33:00 PM }

Saturday, August 25, 2007.

Yesterday evening, i went to meet my zone supervisor, MJ, and some of my cg members. We talked.. talked about my my plans after graduation from poly. go SOT, university... ways to earn money for SOT next year, university, and family. Eg giving tuition, being a property agent, insurance agent. It really got me think through about it, inspired me. There are so much things that i want to do which require so much money. The reality of financial struck me and it's like God smacking me saying, "stop giving excuses, keep saying that i can't do this, i can't do that, it's not i want." I need to start making plans, step out and do more things. Shine for Him in the market place! i can do it! Being a property agent really struck me.. so much... when last time i never really think so much about becoming one. It's not easy because it's so competitive in the market. It's not about the money so that i want to become one. Of course, a successful and good property agent really earn big bucks. But it's really about stepping out to the market place and shine for Him. Thinking through, sit in the office from 9-6 everyday is not my type.

just wanna say THANKS to Mj!

my wishes and desires now are going SOT next year, do better in my studies, study university (local or abroad), have a closer relationship with God, be more sensitive to God..

This afternoon i went through my water baptism. i'm so so happy!!! I really felt a refreshed in me and God's presence with me after the water baptism. Entering a new life with God. I believe i am entering a new dimension in my walk with God. I know that things are getting different in my life. i'm breaking through! I just love God so much!

Today service, we are back to the SOTM. I really felt so moved by the words.. Spiritual Concentration...

After service we had our fellowship at TM. Something happen. Things that really got me to do something, step out, talk, encourage people. I know i just not good in talking, advising, but i just put my faith in God for good and correct words. I just don't want to just look at things happen and not doing anything, or too fearful to do things because of my short comings.

To her n whoever are reading this...

I want to say that sometimes when we are complaining about all the naggings from our parents, why don't we ask ourselves, what have we done? What wrong things have we done that make our parents nag and scold. or did we done nothing wrong? No matter small thing or big thing, if we realised we did done something not right, why don't we deal with ourselves first then go correcting others?

I do face situations like yours even until now. scoldings and naggings. but i always think, isn't it because of my bad habits? eg never keep my room or house tidy, not helping my mum to do house work, anyhow throw things in house.. if i know it's my bad habit, then change it! Admit my own mistakes first. If we can change ourselves in our mistakes, they will see it! Start doing what they hope you can do! They just want you to be more responsible for your own life. Also, they have been doing so much, they will be tired too. Be more mature in understanding them!

Bible says, "honour your parents." There are times when we will get irritated by them. What can we do? In everything that happens, firstly think what God want us to do? Does God want us to talk back to them or complain? Is God please with what you have said to your mum and your attitude? It's frustrating to you, i know.. I don't really know what happens to you exactly, but i do know that parents frustrate you with constant naggings, scoldings, and you just think why they just don't understand you? We just need to treat them better even though they didn't treat you good. Then all hard times you go through now will eventually become better.

We may expect that our parents can treat us in a certain way, better way. But they are brought up that way, it's their character, what can we do? So what we can do is if you want to be a more understanding and loving person, start show people your love and concern and understanding! when she need to vent her anger, actually it's not that difficult for you to be quiet and let her vent her anger and complains. After a while she'll be ok. Sometimes when she do it, it does not mean that you did something wrong. She just want to let go of certain unhappiness in her, she wants your attention, she just need someone who can listen to her. Be patient and listen. We have Bible and God and church to teach us and change us, but she don't have! understand?

Finally, you need to understand about your attitude and respect towards a leader. every leader you will be meeting in church, cg leader, cg helper, zone supervisor, pastor, etc.. God place them in your lives for a purpose, that they can guard over your lives. Bible says that they are our shepherd over us, they are responsible of our lives, and GOD EXPECT US TO RESPECT THEM. You need to know that nobody is perfect, even our leaders. They will do wrong things and say wrong things too. Because God place them as our leaders and we are to respect them, we can't correct them even they are wrong. They will be correct by their leader above them. Our church believe in strong discipleship, means teaching and "scoldings". They correct you of your wrong ways, show you God's way. Once in a while i do get scolding from leader for the wrong things i done, and i just accept it, even sometimes i may not be in the wrong.

If you want to be change and mould by God, be a true disciple of God, then you gotta open up your heart and be willing to accept discipleship from your leader. Everytime you are being discipled, you got moulded by God. You will understand how God wants you to do things.

All these you need to understand and know. even you may not like it. That's all.. yup yup.. = )

{ 11:58:00 PM }

Friday, August 24, 2007.

Holiday mood~

it's holiday time!!!
i really love it!
and pimples can disappear from my face liao..
wahaha..
=D

{ 3:59:00 PM }

Thursday, August 23, 2007.

Tomorrow will be the day i rejoice!
wahaha..
last paper tomorrow..
haven't been really studying hard for this exam...
last minute studying,
and i have been watching tv more than studying...
or can say watch tv while studying...
still got 19 1/2 hours to SEMP paper..
not feeling urgent to go back studying yet..

{ 1:30:00 PM }

Sunday, August 19, 2007.

1 more paper to go!!
Last paper which is on this friday.
After that, so free!!!

Things wanna do after exam:
exercise!!
go running, swimming...
I'm getting fatter liao...
haha..
i'm looking forward to sp chc chalet,
10-14 sept.
Even though this chalet is quite crazy,
5 days..
but i know that it gonna be fun...
I want to build up my spiritual life and relationship with God.
spend more time praying and reading bible.
seriously, i have been neglecting it for quite sometime...
Discipline myself!
I think during the holiday,
i'll finish up all the movies, drama series, that i have stuck for quite sometime.

Also, this coming saturday i'll be getting Water Baptised. I'm really looking forward to it! yeah!! For edmund info, i didn't give myself a baptised name. hehes..

{ 10:41:00 PM }

Thursday, August 16, 2007.

Praise God!

Yesterday after my exam paper while i was keeping all my things into my bag, i wasn't notice that my admin card was left under my bag. so i left the exam room with my admin card still left on the table which i sat for my paper earlier on. I wasn't aware that my admin card wasn't with me till i reached jp. when i took out my wallet and my card wasn't there. i search in my bag, it was't there too. i was like.. "sian..." so i began to think for a while, what should i do? God then prompted me to go back school and search for it. so i decided to go back to school.

It was around 12nn, 1 hour after my exam ended. As i walked, i traced the route that i had walked earlier on when i left the school to jp. But i didn't see my card. i went back to the classroom that i had my exam. as i was walking, i was hoping that the room will still be open and not locked. When i reached there, i saw the light was still on. i checked it was the right room. i peeped into the room. i was extremely delighted! i went into the room and there was only 1 girl in the room. she seemed like she was checking the room as she was walking around the room, but i am not sure. she noticed me as i go into the room. immediately she knew the admin card that she found was mine. she handed it over to me without asking if that my admin card was mine but told me that was my admin card. i was like, "wow!"

I really thank God! just like my thumbdrive, so many times i had forgotten to take out from the computer station after my lessons. i am always so careless, but He never fails to protect my possessions. Everytime he just impressed me with assurance that i will find back my things. It just amazed me when i really get back my thumbdrive every time i forgotten to take, and this time, my admin card! There are few times, it was only after few days then i realised my thumdrive was left on the computers. my classmates were also so amazed that how come everytime i can found back my thumbdrive, when normally it should have been taken away by other people. Because of God...



GOD OF MY FOREVER
by Gan KC

Verse 1
God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o'er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by your grace
On this altar I've written my life
Tells a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

Chorus
God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifce redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

Verse 2
God of my all I've surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say "Well done"
Bowing before Your throne

Bridge
Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

{ 12:20:00 PM }

Wednesday, August 15, 2007.

pscm paper down.
2 more papers to go!
dmdw on this frinday, semp on next fri. = )

{ 5:14:00 PM }

Tuesday, August 14, 2007.

You Have Your Emotions in Check

You are an incredibly stable and happy person. Ever consider being a therapist? You have figured out how to keep a positive outlook, no matter what. You don't have an easier life than anyone else. You just have figured things out a little more.

{ 11:39:00 PM }

You Are Crimson Red

Down to earth and warm-hearted, you instantly make everyone feel at ease around you. And while you have an understated passion - you lack the uncontrolled passion of most other reds. You prefer to sit back and enjoy every situation life has to offer. You put an optimistic spin on everything. And even when things are going well, you don't get too amped up. You prefer to keep your emotions as steady as possible.

{ 11:25:00 PM }

You Should Spend Your Summer at the Beach

You're a free spirit who is always thinking of new ways to have fun. And you don't just love summer... you live for it. So, you really should blow off your responsibilities and head to the beach!

{ 11:20:00 PM }

You Should Wear Cherry Red Lip Gloss

Wild, fresh, and totally alluring.

{ 11:03:00 PM }

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Armadillo Beast Your Superpower is Piracy Your Weakness is Love Your Weapon is Your Kinetic Rod Your Mode of Transportation is Cable

{ 10:59:00 PM }

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart. While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

{ 10:50:00 PM }

You Should Be Fashion Designer

Although you're offbeat and artistic, you have a good eye for trends You can figure out new incredible clothes to create... that will sell well!

{ 10:44:00 PM }

Monday, August 13, 2007.

my blog updates!

bloggie links:
- John (my brother)
- Yi xuan/yvonne

{ 6:00:00 PM }

exam exam exam...
it's always one day before the paper then i will sense the urgency.
Wednesday is my supply chain paper, fri is Data mining paper.
i haven't really start studying yet...
tomorrow and tuesday, i must really study hard for the whole day... =X

{ 12:17:00 AM }

Sunday, August 12, 2007.

i begin to see that my hair is nice...
hahas.. = )

{ 12:24:00 AM }

Friday, August 10, 2007.

2 papers down.
ethical hacking assignment down.
3 more papers to go...

I went swimming this evening.
and jogging on wednesday.
great!
shall go more.. = )

{ 11:57:00 PM }

Mugging and mugging...

sian-zation.
First half of my day, typing my Ethical hacking assignment report.
Second half of my day, study for ethical test (exam) on fri.
Till now haven't finish studying...
2 more chapters to go...

Now is already 1.17am.
The test later on is at 9am.
=X

{ 1:11:00 AM }

Tuesday, August 07, 2007.

Mugging...

1 paper down...

1 Assignment-Ethical Hacking & 4 more papers to go...
10 Aug: Ethical Hacking (ETH)
15 Aug: Principles of supply chain management (PSCM)
17 Aug: Data mining and data warehousing (DMDW)
24 Aug: Security management practice (SEMP)

{ 8:52:00 PM }

Monday, August 06, 2007.

Short hair is the trend now!

Girls nowadays are keeping short hair.
don't know why...
it's the trend hairstyle now!
Like almost all the sisters in sp pos this year who used to have long hair had went to cut it short.
Meiping, samatha, huiwen...
they all used to have long hair, but now it's short.
hehe..
=D

{ 10:39:00 PM }

Sunday, August 05, 2007.

i had done something super silly...
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i went to cut my long hair,
at this ulu salon where i have never go before,
at gek poh.
now...
is short.
not that nice.
isn't what i really want.
nothing special.
sianzz.. =X

{ 11:05:00 PM }

Wednesday, August 01, 2007.

after school ends at 3pm today, hafizah and i went jp and shopped around.
We bought e new maybelline foundation.
Today i have bought a tube top at fox with 50% discount,
a blusher from body shop,
shampoo from body shop,
stationery from popular,
blusher brush from watson.
Omg, i spent so much!
We shopped until 5pm.
then we went buy some snacks from shihlin food stall outside jp.
and we go home.
I have been home since 5 plus.
ate my dinner already.
but till now...
I HAVEN'T START STUDYING FOR MCOM TEST ON THIS COMING FRIDAY!!
AHHHHH!!
after i finish typing this, i will go study. = )

{ 9:58:00 PM }