Sunday, May 31, 2009.

The 997th posts!
3 more to 1000!
hehehe...
:))

I'm such a QUALITY TIME person!!!
once there's any lost in the time spent with any of my good friend, i will feel that the friendship is losing also.

A FRIEND that i used to spent a lot of time with.
Talked on msn, go out and talk craps, had meals together, share ideas and problems, watch movies together, serve together... someone never fail to be around... NOW seems like his busyness has robbed the time away which we all used to have together. I feel very distant from this friend. No longer do we really talk as much. I just feel that this friendship is just losing.

*SIGH*

:(

{ 2:23:00 AM }

Saturday, May 30, 2009.

Wonderful!!!!

4:02am.
Just came back 2 hours ago from a wonderful supper!!!
with suee, vanessa, victor and thomas!
at this train station at outram area.. not mrt station kz.. haha.. train literally.

We camwhore the whole day!
from afternoon meeting suee, to choir, in the mrt, during supper and after supper.
hahahha!
Dear suee must have a hard time uploading it up.
hehehehe~

LOVE THE DAY!!!
HAPPY!!!!
:)))))

Just one conclusion: not ready.
Is this worth waiting for?
I am not sure...

{ 3:59:00 AM }

Thursday, May 28, 2009.

I have been browsing through a few job posting websites, like jobstreet and jobsdb... i could only found a few suitable ones and send a few resumes. All of them are actually from recruit firms... Ya, couldn't find any that is direct employment from the company.
*sigh*

My relatives and the people around me keep telling me to quickly get a job. There aren't too many temp jobs around actually la... and maybe i am picky.. recruit express have a lot... but i will never want to go to recruit express unless they offer a position with better pay.

and somehow i just don't feel like working yet...
but i have to......

{ 2:57:00 AM }

SHOPPING DAY with SUEE & RUBEZ!!!!
Enjoy shopping with them at bugis!!!!

Oh man~~~
I was only planning to get a shirt and black heels for gdop, end up i spend far more that that.
Let's see where did i spent my money on...

I bought a shirt in HOT PINK AGAIN!
ZA pore smoother.
did pedicure, RED!

when i went back to JP,
i bought...
Contact lens solution,
shampoo.

OMG!!!
Going to be broke soon...
money money~
:(

{ 1:37:00 AM }

Wednesday, May 27, 2009.

Had a great choir prac today!
learnt all those old old songs for GDOP.
Awwww~
i can sense this weekend gonna be wonderful and fun!
SOS, mini emerge and GDOP!!!
LOVE choir, HAPPY serving!
:))

Tmr shopping with SUEE & RUBEZ!

Aiyo...
there're so many thing i want to buy...
Pore concealer thingy, Mascara, Eye shadow, fake eyelashes, blusher, lip gloss, bronzer, new phone, more clothes, grey vest, blazer, shoes, heels, jackets and many more!!!

show me the money please~!!!!!
:OOO

{ 12:53:00 AM }

Monday, May 25, 2009.

when my thoughts are beginning to change......
when and how does it happens?

funny ah?

:)

{ 2:38:00 AM }

Saturday, May 23, 2009.

Sometimes it just get me stop and ponder.
when will i meet one?
when everyone is getting attached and married.
when all my zone leaders are getting attached to one another at a very crazy speed.
haha!

well~
like what some of my friends had said.
i'll trust God for one GOOD man!
Keep on increasing my value.
Build up my character.
Build up my appearance.
Build up my spirituality.

No hurry...
i'm still YOUNG anyway!!!
hehehe!

:DDD

{ 3:34:00 AM }

Friday, May 22, 2009.

SOT?

We had a great sessions with Pst kong for the past 2 days! The Books of Romans & Galatians series. We crashed into this year SOT was a new experience. haha! I just feel like i'm back to SOT! weeeee~

We are just on the 2nd chapter of Romans. Teaching about faith, work and obedience of Paul, the relationship between Jews and Gentiles Christians, and the eternal judgement of God. All these were taught to deal with our own relationship with God.

The big word "CALLING" appears once again. It just get me started thinking about it once again, seriously seek God for direction. i think i have forgotten this very big word. What's my calling? Have i been doing just what i want to do only? i really don't want waste my life doing what God didn't called me to do. This really test our obedience and faith towards God.

Spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak~
I really need to get myself strong and stronger in God. Moving forward. Climb the right ladder and God's ladder. Discipline to pray and pray more, read the word and read more. Be more sensitive to God. Be more yielded. Faith. Pray for love and more love for my members and people.

So many things~
Not going to be an easy road......

:))

{ 1:08:00 AM }

Thursday, May 21, 2009.

haisssss~
i am starting to feel frustrated and irritated....
can i continue on?
:(

{ 1:53:00 AM }

Tuesday, May 19, 2009.

Quality time.

all the msn chats with my fav people.
all the shoppings with my girls.
all the fb chats with fun peeps.
all the movies sessions with my cliques.
all the eating out sessions with frens who talks.
all the singing sessions with choir.
all the tv sessions with my family.
all the sharing sessions with God.

why do i love quality time so much?
because they make me happy.
because they keep my thoughts from wondering off.

i love everyone of them!
:DD


sorry.
my once in a while sickness.
rubbish thoughts.
hahaha...
ignore below.

:))

{ 1:42:00 AM }

Monday, May 18, 2009.

Im just bad at this kind of thing.

I always have it started but where's the ending?
I always wanted something to happen, but it always remain the same.
I have never understand how to let this continue and keep it going.
I have never know what is the direction.
I always ended up nowhere.
My mind always ended up full of thoughts.

Maybe i should keep my mouth shut for the time being.
Maybe i should keep this clear.

{ 7:32:00 PM }

Maybe...

Maybe things are not really happening as good as i have been thinking.
Maybe in the end, it still turn out to be the the same.
Maybe it just turn out to be a disappointment.
Maybe i have been just thinking too much lately.
Maybe i should not think about it anymore.

i don't know...

So many maybe's... It's just maybe.

{ 2:12:00 AM }

Quality time.

where is all the time that we all used to spend together???
guess all of us have been so busy recently.
i miss all the quality time.
i miss all the chatting sessions.

haissssss~

don't hope for another group of friends that can only last for one season~

:(((

{ 1:04:00 AM }

Sunday, May 17, 2009.

be better!

i want to do better...
in my spirituality.
in my relationship with God.
in my relationship with people.
in my relationship with my family.
in my capacity.
in my wisdom.
in my knowledge.
in my love for people.
in my countenance.
in my smile.
in my singing.
in my grooving.
in my outward appearance.
in my communication skills.

Sometimes we all always say we want to improve and be better. yet many times there are too many areas until we don't really know which are the areas. As i list out everything, i think i have a better idea of where i really want myself to do better and work for it.

:))

{ 10:33:00 PM }

I used to love ENERGY & TORO!

Toro is in our services this week for performances. shuai right? wahaha! I used to like Energy alot when i was in secondary school, especially TORO! hahaaaaa~

Ok, this is in one of the conference room on saturday. In the midst of games and chaos...

{ 2:26:00 AM }

Love night chillout session!

Oh! I want to say this! Yesterday it was the worst experience taking a cab la... I thought i was going to be late meeting some of my members at mrt station for cgm. So i took cab down from my house to pasir ris. The moment the cab started to move, it began to move into the jam. It jam from JURONG ALL THE WAY TO KALLANG!!!! OMG! I boarded the cab at 630pm and reached cg at 8pm. Apparently, very very late! Late for 1/2 hour! Know what???? The cab fare was $44.70!!!!!!!!! *FAINT* I could have take mrt with only 2 bucks, and i won't be late for cg lor.... My fault la... i took cab at this super super peak hour.... *cries*

After cgm on friday, some of us went to this pub, Soul Rock, at Singapore Flyer. This is the christian pub. Yea Yea! very nice place! Sherlyn was singing there for the day, so all of us, and some of our zone leaders and pple went to listen to her sing. :)

{ 1:58:00 AM }

Saturday, May 16, 2009.

wondering

what's with the BEST FRIEND thing?

WONDERING.........

Just got back home 1 hr ago frm Soul Rock pub at Singapore flyer.
Sherlyn was singing there, so we all went down to listen to her.

Fulfilled my BF!!!! YAY!
the next thing that hits me is my phone bill!!!!
OUCH!
Im so so so broke!!!
GOD HELP ME!!!!

{ 3:23:00 AM }

Friday, May 15, 2009.

Self-motivated!

It's 5.17AM NOW!!!!
Apparently, i am still awake!

I was worshipping God halfway, didn't know where to go or what to expect, just want to be in presence of God. I ask God to speak to me, yet i have no idea what i want Him to speak to me.

Thoughts just come and i began to pen down. Ideas, visions and thoughts for my this member. This came just in time, as this saturday sha wants us to share that.

I heart this lovely schedule and notebook of mine that i bought from ARTBOX. I love it! I have alot of blank or 10%-filled schedulers previously which all end up in the dustbin. But for this, I wrote down all the thoughts that God gave me, all the words that Bro Poh shared in the worshop, encouraging words for myself, and even small little thoughts that i most probably won't write it here online. When you have something nice, you will want to use it to the max. :)

And the last thing, I finally have the last few hundreds bucks to complete and fulfill my building fund! I need to quickly throw it all in before i use it for other things! I make it through! You all may not know, when this A&B left only the last month, i think i only had it half-fulfilled. All my allowances for this few months which i could have comfortably use it to get what i want, i decide to fulfil what i have pledged to God. For this last month or so, i really trying to give all i have despite that i am not working. I was really struggling la...... Well, PTL still!!!!

Be SELF-MOTIVATED! that's what Bro Poh said in today's worshop. Gonna keep on improving, IMPROVING & IMPROVING!!!!!

Weeeeeee~

:))))))

{ 5:17:00 AM }

Wednesday, May 13, 2009.

Lifebook 2009

Jimmy sent me this, and i thought this is really good... :)))

LIFEBOOK 2009

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants (factory)
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy
5. Make time for prayer
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2008
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day ---- and while you walk, SMILE !!

Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do ; keep your limits
14. Don't take yourself so seriously ; no one else does
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and Laugh more
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

25. Call your family often
26. Each day give something good to others
27. Forgive everyone for everything
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day
30. What other people think of you is none of your business
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right things
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
34. GOD heals everything
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up !
37. The best is yet to come
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be HAPPY !!!!!!!

Last but not the least :

40. Do forward this to everyone you care about.

{ 12:02:00 AM }

Tuesday, May 12, 2009.

It's getting sian-er...
gone job-less for months already.
getting broke.
im still in my last last lap of BF.

life now is not fulfilling.
so so not fulfilling.
unhealthy lifestyle of sleep late and wake up late.

what i should do is...
send more resumes.
sleep early and wake up early.
go for a jog and gym regularly.
read more books.
go to tv once in a while and stop wasting all my time here.
give more time for God and his words.
faster throw all my money into BF.
quickly start my blogshop.
save money.

{ 1:34:00 PM }

Monday, May 11, 2009.

Lady GaGa Poker Face Makeup Tutorial

{ 10:17:00 PM }

bad hair.
heavy head.
body feels so suan.
what is happening...?

it's been a long time, long long time.

{ 12:08:00 AM }

Sunday, May 10, 2009.

it just keep me thinking and thinking...
YOU.
:)

{ 1:40:00 AM }

Friday, May 08, 2009.

What's your special moment?

i said that i want to refrain talking to you this few days...
i still talked to you in the end... haiyo! :S

Today i feel very blessed attending P&W workshop by Bro Poh! I feel so inspired and provoked by his session. I feel so priviledge la! chosen people frm each cellgroup get to go. Bro Poh said: you all are here because God chose you among the 34,000 people in the church. and you're the most talented and creative people! WOW!

Remember: Going back to the SPECIAL MOMENTS! The FIRST LOVE, the passion, the excitement, the joy when you first did everything.

It's really true for me... After near 6 years in this church, many things have became mundane. week after week doing the same things. Going for cgm, service, praise, worship, follow up, talk to new friends, call people up, connect grp... everything! many people may just going through motion... Religious: doing things doesn't involve your heart. I confess sometimes i do grumble to myself on follow up.. and rather ALOT and other things as well.. but i gonna change my heart my attitude by finding back the SPECIAL MOMENT!

like what Bro Poh told us about his special moments..

These are mine!!
The first time i went to cgm, the people there really inspire me.
The first time i received my tongues, i was excited.
The first time i was being ask to be a volunteer in chcsa youth camp.
The first time MJ asked me to help him to do things, i gave all my time.
The first time i did saturation for chcsa.
The first lesson of Bible study, i just want more.
The first time i was a cg helper/connect group leader, i so wanted to touch lives.
The first time i was on choir platform, i was overjoyed!
The first time my connect group grows, i really thanked God.
The first time i did visitation to my member house.
The first day or rather the first time i got to SOT...
The first time i prophesy...... and the person teared.
The first time i spoke word of knowledge/wisdom...... and it was true.
The first time i led worship......
The first time i preached...... scary... :X
The first time i shared offering message...
The first time i lay hand on someone...
The first time i prayed for someone for deliverance...

the list goes on and on...
.
.
.
.

Also, spirituality vs skill. Bro Poh's skills really blew our mind away! The hungerness that he stressed us about. I just gotta improve, really improve my singing!!!!! YES!!!!

I really enjoyed the whole session!

Today, i felt that it was rather fruitful day. Afternoon, i met up with sheryl to accompany her for interview and go shop shop around orchard. although, we were not once not there. but i enjoy going out with her! i love her!

Night, session with Bro Poh. After that, we celebrated Eunice 22nd BIRTHDAY!!! from coffeebean to mac... Me, Jiji, Gerald, Chloe, Huiyi!! We wanted to give her surprise celebration, but we were so lousy la... she knew it since start and she pretended all the way with us. hahaha!HOR, NINI? HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :)

ok lar, i shall end here liao!
LOVES!!!!

:)))

{ 2:30:00 AM }

Thursday, May 07, 2009.

The 1st thing i want to get after i complete my BF is.......
SAMSUNG OMNIA PHONE!!!!!

i can see it... soon!!!!!

:DDD

{ 3:06:00 AM }

X-Men Wolverine!

Met up with the usual people for a movie session at J8! Me, rubez, justin, jasper, joseph, ben and aaron. Lexx joined us after movie. For the movie... hahaha, i can only understand 70% of it. goodness...! I have never seen or read anything about x-men before... Talking and fellowship session after movie at MOS burger.

LOVE IT!!

:))

{ 2:31:00 AM }

Wednesday, May 06, 2009.

close friend??
yet you don't ask or concern.
yet you are not sensitive.
yet you are not patient enough.

how can i share my heart to you...?

it's not that im not open.
it's about who cares, asks, and be patient to listen.

{ 2:15:00 AM }

Monday, May 04, 2009.

the song

the song really speaks to my heart..
my tears rolling down as i listen to it...

{ 2:34:00 AM }

Sunday, May 03, 2009.

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

{ 7:51:00 PM }

Saturday, May 02, 2009.

im such a quality time person

all the little little time spent makes me smile...
that's why i am a quality time person.

but i really wonder will it ever happen?

{ 2:17:00 AM }