Sunday, January 30, 2005.

Hmmm.. Saturday... A combined cg with E369 at jason's house... Can feel the presence of God... But i think i should learn more to put away all other distractions in my mind and really worship Him with all of my heart... I really want a total pulling down of God's presence and sense the anointing everytime... Sometimes i did, but sometimes my mind is so distracted... Yah lor... After cgm, we had pot luck... Wahaha~ N239 presented the DURIAN pizza... hahaz.. The dining table is full of dishes... great time fellowshipping... Then ok.. John, Kah keong, carolyn and i were at carolyn's house, spent alot of effort to do the pot luck dishes in the afternoon... Then when we travelled down to jason's house, i just thought it was funny... Initially we thought that it was still early and we took train... After quite many stops, carolyn felt that we won't reach there on time if we continue to take train... So we alighted... We took cab from sembawang and realised that it was worst than taking a train... being stopped by many red traffic lights and some more... Traffic jam... We were in the cab as the time moved closer to the time of cgm... We can't be late... But Praise the Lord!!! We actually reached jason's house at 6.15, the time cgm would be starting... but bro mj is still in the room going through the praise and worship songs... When we reached there, we were like thank God, cgm have not started... HahaZ...

Then once again today, able to be in the House of God.. service.. congregration... yEp... service is really getting better and better... remember must pray for pastor kong and pastor sun... During fellowship at coffee shop, bro mj went through the our goals settings one person by one person... After that, i just could feel more faith in acheiving the goals i have set for myself for this year... Then, carolyn gave me Christian lifestyle bs.. 1st lesson.. Through this lessons, i will grow to be even more mature christian... Carolyn want me to remember some things and memorise bible versus, pray in opening and closing bs lesson... a little pressure but it's good lohz.. hahaz... I think that i really have to be more stronger in God's word, meditating through day and night... and remember the bs teachings that i had received.. so that i would grow even more stronger and mature... no use having bs lesson when we are not remember it and applying it... So.. yah loh... Both of us went to meet some of our cg members at a void deck near church... Some are playing chess over there, while carolyn and i were playing guitar... Yah.. Then later we all went home...

I just truly know that God is telling me he wants to bring me up into another level in my spiritual life and to be rised up... i have to step up in faith in doing what he wants me to do... don't doubt... My spiritual life or knowing the word of God, i know is not that strong yet... In this year, i will be soaring even higher... Indeed from the start of this year, alot of things in my life are already going up to another level... like my education, devotion time with Him, love for God, bs, new cg.. etc etc... all these happened in this january 2005... Although i am meeting troubles and problems still at the start of this year, i must still be strong in the Lord and His Word, not to be defeated by all these circumstances!!! AMEN!!!! God is speaking to me all these through His words, pastor, bro mj, brothers and sisters... I could feel that this year 2005, will be a different year for me... a better year... that God will mould me even further to be even more to His character... really... sensing it... i can feel the pouring and moving of the Holy spirit right now... Hallelujah!!! = ]

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Wednesday, January 26, 2005.

Yesterday noon, i met carolyn to accompany wan lin for her eye operation... I thought that it would be until quite late... but everything just ended in around 1 hour... So fast right... I can sense the faith and braveness in wan lin to go for this operation... yah lor.. God will protect her and indeed He has... The operation ended every smoothly... I believe that she will recover very soon... in the healing hand of God... HeEz.. =P

When wan lin and her mum went home, carolyn and i went to bugis... We shopped around there... just window shopping... hahaz.. At rockery, we ate some egg tarts there while we waited for zi yan to come... He took so long to come.. haha.. 3 of us walked down to the bugis village and looked at the stuffs there.. Carolyn and i found and buy a ***** for john as cg birthday present... The words printed on the present very "zai" ... Yah lor... both of us chose that lor... heez.. Then we went KFC for our dinner at bugis junction... After dinner, we walked to selegie to play pool there... I was playing with carolyn for quite many rounds.. Really thanks both of them for teaching me and helping me in the skills... We play until about 10.30pm then we took train home... i reach home at around 11.45pm..

As i reached home... diaOx... My parents were quarelling... sianz... i don't really feel like caring too much about their problems... However, i still prayed that to God during my devotion time... PEACE at home!!! -_- lll

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Sunday, January 23, 2005.

Yup.. On saturday, the whole day, i just could know that it's a long awaiting day for many of us... In noon, we had a youth outing at bukit gombak cdans... Not a very big outing as i thought... Spending the whole afternoon at there playing bowling, cs, eating......

Later in the evening, a very touchable and different presence than any other cgm... It's a multiplication cell group meeting... Of course there was a sense of joy in everyone's heart that cg would be mutiplying... only healthy cg will grow...In our heart, the feeling of joy was mixed with unbearable... couldn't bear to see that "my cg member would not be in the same cell group anymore..." It was the love for our cell group members, brothers and sisters, which was contain in our heart and that we treasured so much of the spending in each other's presence... I am really very very excited that God had put me in N239, a cg that i always wanted to be in... Truly praising the name of the Lord and exalt Him... Some might get into a cg that they hope that they did not... but i believe there's a purpose by God for this arrangement... I believe right now, as i come to a new cg, i will be expecting a greater growth in my spiritual life and a more closer walk with the Lord... believing in my heart that God is bringing me up to the next level in every areas of my life... He is rising me up... Things will not be the same as before... So i really want to thank God so much!! I was assigned to be birthday i/c with wan lin... It's a great challenges as now i understand that this role has a big responsibility... and the things to do are much more than before as a birthday i/c... Yah loh... = )

Today i had service as usual... Pastor Kong preached about the 7 "P"s ... Progress, passion, purpose, persevation, power, prosperity, protection... Blessings that God have taken us into from cursing... After service, we went to coffee shop for fellowship and we celebrated joelle birthday... Most of us went home in the evening... Later my mum, brother and i went to a relative's wedding dinner... What i really impressed alot was not about the wedding but was during the wedding dinner what my aunt (my mum elder sister) told me and my brother about my mum while my mum was away... hahaz.. I was shock as i heard that... and it's funny too... So yup... =P Everytime as a weekend had passed, i would look forward to another weekend... Nothing excite me so much than my walk with God, being in the house of God, serve Him, spending time with my brothers and sisters...

I am really glad that God arranged my life to be like this... I have a great true brother and also a brother in Christ... It's true that we will never know what will happen in the future... Like before when i just join church to knowing N239, i never expected that things can turn up to be this way today now... My brother, John received Christ shortly after i did in 2004... John and i were brought to church by different people to a cg that were not even connected.. Then his cg was unexpectedly taken over by bro Mj given by bro meng how.. That was how his cg and my cg are brought together... Many people in his cg and my cg, even me, every people was so shocked to know that John is my brother and i am his sister... To now i am in the same cg with him... Many people who have relatives and family members in the same cg will eventually be seperated after multiplication... but he and i are not seperate after cg multiplication... The relationship between my brother and i have improve so much from before when we were not yet a Christian to right now we are and belong to same cg... I love this brother and enjoy talking to him about our brothers and sisters, God, cg ... etc... We share our views and comments over some things, and we talk problems that are over our life... All these i believe are not coincidences although it do look like... but it is a plan from God all along when we do not know anything... Things will slowly be revealed as days past... Everything that is happening in our life seems unreal and you do not know why is it happening, but all these have a purpose by God and all that He place in our lives are really good for us...

I see a changes in my life from the past to now... I live a life right now with greater expectancy and purpose... in serving God, be someone successful not by myself but by the will, strength, direction from God... My life on the earth is just a beginning for my real life in the heaven... I truly can sense that with God around in my life is just so wonderful and different... It's not about doing or owning certain things that are just pleasing yourself.. not worldly.. but the relationship i have with God and his children... and wanting to do everything out of love... Loving Him and receiving love from Him... Life is full of blessings and God is always prospering me... Have love, hope, joy and peace... be someone who is pleasing to God... I choose to abide and dwell in Him forever no matter what happen, never want to be away from Him... I look foward to see my future that had planned by God, but also treasuring what i have right now... Therefore, God is always so good and amazing by what he have planned for us... I believe that right now i may not be that matured yet in spiritual.. but trusting Him that he will rise me up someday, always bringing me up to the next level in my serve for Him... I just want to follow him... More doors and opportunities will be opened up for me... Yeah!!! Hallelujah!!!

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Friday, January 21, 2005.

Today suppose to have cell group meeting... Oh God!!! Why keep delaying the announcing multiplication of cg, members in N239 and E369... Bro mj has sore eyes... Really must pray that his eyes will get heal ah! So that tomorrow will have cell group meeting... HaHaz.. I really miss cgm very much! Hope that it won't delay again!!!

So carolyn, kah keong, me, john, shi ting, sandy and eugene, all of us went suntec city... we walk around the carrefour, ate out dinner there, then we went to the fountain of wealth... I think it is really a very interesting place... Everytime, i would just pass by there... This time i went in there, i viewed the laser show, expected our dedication to be showed, got feel of the water that flow from the fountain... Great place indeed!! =Þ We all had a wonderful laughter and joy spending time in each other presence... strolled down to the esplanade and fullerton... YeP... There always is a beautiful place...

Kah keong saw that he is in N239... he must be very happy... WaHahAz... =P No lah... It's right that we will only know the real answer at cgm... We may peep or indeliberately see the lists from cg helpers or who... However, we will never know is the list finalised or not... Thus the real answer shall only be revealed TOMORROW!!! I hope that it is really TOMORROW!!! = ]

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Thursday, January 20, 2005.

Yesterday...

Wan lin and i went to Ngee Ann Poly open house... a very tiring day though... We reached there at about 12 noon and stayed until about 4+ pm... A hot day... It was my second time there as last year i had been there before... This time i got to see and know about other schools and courses than school of business and accountancy alone... I am surprised that i myself are quite interested in science courses too... However, still it won't be my first few choices of courses... My first choice will still be business studies!!! HeEz.. =P By taking the bus and tour around NP, i realised much more things that i never know in the past... Last year, i only went to School of BA.. but this time i went to school of life sciences & chemical technology, and school of film and media studies... School of engineering is the biggest school in NP, which offers 15 diplomas... I saw the olympic size swimming pool and 5 canteens... Polytechnic is so wonderful right??!!! Yeah!!!

We took a bus to Jp.. Walk around there and i bought a new swimming costume and a goggles... It costed me a total of 60+ bucks... Very expensive right?

Initially we planned to go NYP as well... but the distant and time made us decided not to go... Receive a call from Jia that cgm change to friday.. At first i was like "huh.. why have to change..." but later on bro Mj sms me to tell me that there will be an youth event on saturaday... So... ok... I hope to go for this youth outing.. but what if i don't have any friend coming, will bro mj still let me go? I don't know... Where have my faith gone? hahaz..

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005.

Even though sun tanning is absolutely bad for skin, i stlll love to sun tan and i still go for it... Wan Lin and me had a 3-hour soak in the cooling water under the blazing sun at Jurong east swimming complex this afternoon.... Thank God that the heavy clouds did not really gather right above where we were in the pool, and the sun still could be seen... I realised i really had a strong tanned as i saw the 2 different shades on my body... Yeah.. One funny thing happened to me for this time as i went for the swim was that i totally forgot to bring some important things that i needed after the swim and cleaning myself... I shall not disclose what were those things! hahaZ!!! =P It's still ok, not that serious lah although it was quite embarassing... Actually one classmate of us suppose to be with us for swimming... but she can't make it last minute...

We had our lunch at KFC in the swimming complex... Next we went to town to walk around and do shopping... over few places at peninsula plaza, heeren etc... I bought some guitar stuff at peninsula plaza... Walk around at the heeren shops.. Until 7+pm, we had our dinner at the 'grafitti...' place at heeren.. I don't know what actually there called... We had wanton mee... hEeZ... not bad... Till then it was quite late, about 8pm le... Therefore we decided to go home and go home by bus... long distant... I reached home at around 10... YeP.. =Þ

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Sunday, January 16, 2005.

After service today, we all went to best coffee shop to fellowship... Yup.. Then later on, few of us went to Jp arcade... Play Daytona, DDR etc... hahaz... Few of them left to play pool or what.. only left me, sandy amd shiting... We played DDR until.... hahaz... Can say shiting and i played the most... (thanks sandy for letting us to dance and most credits were payed by her...) hahaz... So we played DDR, and only DDR until 8 plus pm... Then they accompanied me to life bookshop and i bought a book... Sandy went to buy wafer after that, and we go home after she bought the wafer... Yah loh... = )

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Saturday, January 15, 2005.

When recently i took out the tithe that i have been accumulating for this month and counted, i realised that how much God has bless me financially throughout this month... not only this month but the past months too... Indeed, i should not worry about anything... Trust in the Lord with all my heart that he will provide all my needs and so i would not need to fear for lacking of anything... Yeah!! Praise the Lord!!! For He's Jehovah Jireh, my provider...

I truly felt so bless and wonderful in my walk with Jesus... In this 1 year of my relationship with Him, i can sense that i am even more closer to Him now!! Seriously, i want to walk in His ways and His will... I did went through dryness in my relationship with Him certain times and i did went through been caught in His intangible presence... I always make a decision of never leaving Him... When i felt that i was so much away from His presence, i will seek.. to be once again be touched by this anointing... I found Him as everytime i seeked for Him... I'll never stop falling in love with You, Lord!!!

In JAMES 4:10, it says "Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up." Yesterday as i read the Bible, i came across this verse... Many people want much from God.. They want to be leaders and to be given a lot of responsibility... Me too, want to do even more things.. hoping that i would be rise up as a leader... Of course that is good of wanting to serve God... However, as believers, instead of asking God to put you in this and that task, why not seek Him and ask where and what position he want to put us in... Intead of questioning God why you are not released into ministry or why greater opportunity in serving God is not given to you, why not trust Him that when we are really ready and mature enough, He will put us into a greater height... Don't exalt ourselves or force ourselves into a position that God does not have for us but we must trust God totally with our lives!! Amen!!! From what i had read of His words, i learnt to trust Him with my life... letting Him to direct me and guide me... I should continue to meditate on His words and put it into actions... as JAMES 1:22 says "But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves." Yeah!!!

Thus, i really want to thank God for giving me so much strength each day... and not forgetting to thank Him for His love and everything He'd given to me... I love you LORD!!! Exalt and praise your glorious name forever... HALLELUJAH!! AMEN!! ^.^

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005.

After the service on sunday preached by Pastor Kong about making commitment to God... All my mind, strength, soul, heart seemed to be renewed and refreshed.. The Holy spirit just fell as my heart cried... to God in my heart...

"Please take away my weakening flesh and let me be strong in the spirit... I want to love You Lord with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength... I commit once again my whole heart to you... I'm willing to follow you, to be trained and discipled by you... Let Your will be done in me and not mine... Renewed me O Lord... Let my passion and fire for You, Your words, the Holy Spirit.. continue to burn... Let me once again to have the extreme hunger to see souls getting saved... Lord, mould me that i will become a strong character - a character like Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour... Embrace me in your arms and that each day i want to draw even more closer to you... Let my spiritual walk with you be even more closer everyday... I love You Lord... want to praise and exalt your glorious and mighty name forever... and want to dwell in your everlastimg love for us to eternity....... AMEN..."

In the past, i had not been so commited to spent my devotion time... Even though everytime my heart did really want to be so close to Him.. but my flesh failed me... Yeah... I really hope to grow even more spiritually each day...and Lord will bring me up to the next level in my life and to be rise up according to the dreams and vision that God would give me... Yep... I can sense God's moving in my life!!! Praise the Lord and Thank God for everything!! = )

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Saturday, January 08, 2005.

Just now, I was at wan lin house baking the birthday cake for Jason and Jenna... It was a wonderful experience for me and her that we had learnt many things... Many unpredictable situations broke out that could let us be directionless, not knowing how to cope with it...

Firstly, we put the so-called "oven" on wan lin's house kitchen table... The table was filled with all sorts of items... There were items that materials were made of wood, meal, plastic, rubber... etc.. all sorts of materiasl.. We were ignorant that we placed this oven near a water flask and it was connected with a water pipe, covered with a rubber... This metal covering of the oven began to heat up as the cake in it was still in baking process... Then, water started to flow and flood the table.... We thought intially that the water came out from the "oven"... Maybe the steam or what had leaked out... Wan lin lifted up this oven and realised that the water did not come from the oven but the water pipe... Small part of the rubber had already melted that water was gushing out and spluttered over the place... I got a cloth to cover the leaking part of the pipe that it would stop the water from continuing to spurt out.. Not long after, the whole house blacked out... We off all the switches in the house.... We did not know how to adjust the circuit breakers in the consumer unit... So she went to her neighbour living downstair to seek for help... The lights were back in a moment time... Wan lin went to on a switch in the kitchen.. maybe it was for the oven or water flask... The light went off and then came back again after adjusting the circuit breakers... ok... We thought that we couldn't continue the cake anymore as wan lin's neighbour told us that the plug for the oven had spoilt... I didn't really believe her words and so wan lin tried the plug on another switch... The oven was still working... Yeah man!!! God is really good!!! We continue to wait for the cake to be done and in the mean while we had to cleared the mess... When her mum and sister came back home... Everything looked ok... seemed lke nothing had happened before... But of course they still realised after that... Wan lin's mum was very angry and fierce when reprimanding her... Really praise the Lord... She did not scold wan lin until......

YeAh... This is really a lesson and experience for us... From the very start to the very end, we still put our trust in the Lord, knowing he will lead us through all problems... He will never forsake us but will show us all steps and directions to deal with difficult situation... We let his holy spirit to guide us and asked for his wisdom... We do not rely on our own strength but we rely on his... Indeed, Lord had showed up at the time to help us and bring us through the situation... We did not meet this kind of situation before but we could do every step to get problems solved.. When so many things happened, we did afraid that we can't successfully produce the cake... However, God is always good... Nothing would be impossible for Him... When we put our trust and faith, everything would be so miraculously solved!!! HALELLUJAH!!! = )

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A gRoUp pHoTo tAkEn dUriNg e YoUtH cAmP @ AloHa SeNtOsA, 10 DeC...

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Friday, January 07, 2005.

Pastor Kong & Sun Newborn Baby, Dayan!!! 

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Sunday, January 02, 2005.

yAh... = ) Had cgm yesterday... great atmosphere & strong anointing... Thanks God for that... And today's service... i could feel the Holy spirit moving... yEah... That's really great... Rain had been pouring down hard for this past few days... The atmosphere was chilled by the weather... Yah lOr... We went to Jp foodcourt at the 3rd level for fellowship... We always had our fellowship at 'best coffeeshop' but today is raining for almost the whole day... Therefore, it was not very convenient to fellowship and had our lunch at our usual place... heEz.. Don't know why the fellowship today was so short... everyone went home so early... so did me & my brother... Kah keong come along to our house... play com.. online.. and we spent time in each other presence like that... He's really a great brother... yUp.. =D He stayed at our house until 6+ pm then he had to go home... We sent him to the street before the boon lay mrt station... = Þ

HeY! Alot of the students have their school reopen tomorrow... but... NOT ME!! I will be still sleeping when many people have to crawl out of bed for their school... wAhaHaZ... Ö

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