Sunday, January 31, 2010.

I thank God for the opportunity to lead praise for the past few weeks and yesterday one went well. I pray that i will do even better next round and pray for greater anointing even as i lead worship soon. lead your people to love and experience you. i cannot slack anymore! must pray and read your word even more!

:))))

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Monday, January 25, 2010.

How amazing God is! His faithfulness and His love. He's our provider. I really thank Him! There're so many times, He just show miracles in my life in area of finances. This morning my aunt and ask me if i have enough money. seriously i don't really have enough. blessings always just come in on time when i really need it. God always know what we want and need, even sometimes we don't ask.

And times when i feel so down... and do not know what to do about all those situation. He will just turn situations around just like that. when i just really do my best and let God do the rest...

I also thank Him for all the opportunities to lead praise & worship in cgm. The dream of becoming BV and leading p&w. It's good to have this opportunity and start small. Somehow i do feel afraid and think that i am not ready for it. spiritual walk with God hasn't been so good. somehow i feel like pushing this opportunity away. i couldn't believe myself to do it for now, but i will trust God instead. because He's the one that has given it to me. and also like what jovan said yesterday.. leading a praise & worship is really not easy. it's not only about skill, but it involves a lot on our spiritual life. jia you!

Lastly, another good news!!!! My bigger boss extended the work contract of evangeline and i to 30th april for now. safe now! hopefully after that, our contract will be further extended.

I just thank God for everything. every tears and every joy that i have been through. i made a lot of mistakes and i learnt it. Through all these things, i will become better and stronger.

:)

{ 5:53:00 PM }

Friday, January 22, 2010.

life.

-from adora's blog.

there’s a thousand things that your patient can teach you. the irony that we are supposed to help them but when in fact we are the ones getting help.we learn about courage and strength from them. about love and the value of time.the tears that stream right out from your eyes. uncontrollable as you blink hard to make it disappear. lots of feelings are welled up inside. trying to learn and also trying to hide.

when it comes, it rips you all apart. it makes you scared. it makes you double question about your life. “what have I done? Have I done enough? Have I done anything fruitful or satisfying?” I look at it and reflect. what i have been missing, the wrong outlook at life. and this is the reason why i choose to do these things.to watch so to learn and value. to do so to help, to bring joy, to ease their pain. that’s why i want to do it. that’s why i want to watch it. that’s why, that’s why its the reason to everything…well almost everything.

life, every minute is borrowed time…and the future is always changing. and the future is the home to our deepest fears and wildest hopes.

{ 10:23:00 PM }

Wednesday, January 13, 2010.

My Friend

For me,
I need to look no more.
I’ve found a friend in you,
a friend to call my own.
And you know,
you can always count on me.

I cannot gurantee I will rush down and be there in an instant.
But this I can assure you,
my thoughts and heart will be with you.
I’ll be there with you the second I can.
Just give me a ring.

Thanks for hearing all my ramblings,
my grumblings and complains.
When no one else knows it,
when others think I’m strong and confident,
when now you know I’m not really there.
But thank YOU for still being my darling friend!

CC. Blythe

{ 10:51:00 AM }

Tuesday, January 12, 2010.

If you think that i am so useless, don’t care about anything, did nothing good at all…
why did you give birth to me at the first place???
The whole week i try to be better, but yet all I get is still scolding.

Scolding for giving you too little money.
Scolding that i don’t love you and care for you and this family at all.
Scolding that i have not contribute to the family.

and all you do is to blame everyone in the family that no one cares for you.
always ask me to tell you what i think, and when i say all you do is angry.
seriously WTH!

{ 11:56:00 PM }

Just got my pay!!!
YAY!
but after minus-ing all the neccessary payments, givings i need to make...
i will left will a few hundred bucks again which are just enough for me to survive for this month.
how to save sia?
:((((

{ 3:33:00 PM }

Wednesday, January 06, 2010.

After work, my colleagues and i went to play badminton together at our working area. there's a badminton court there.. hehehe! it's been a long time since i last played badminton. Came home sweaty and smelly, so i really went for a good bath. scrub from head to toe... my skin is ultra smooth now.

:DDDDDDD

now doing mask.
weeeee~

{ 9:56:00 PM }

Tuesday, January 05, 2010.

I am crazy to get thisssss!!!!

{ 1:17:00 PM }

Sunday, January 03, 2010.

i just want a place to breathe.
i just want a home that i can rest after a long tired day.
i just want parents who understand.

but every responsibilities, expectations and blames are upon me.
i hate it.

{ 1:48:00 AM }

Saturday, January 02, 2010.

Spending more of my time at Tumblr now instead of here.
:D

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