Thursday, May 31, 2007.

what can i say when i had asked almost all of my classmates if they want to come support me for competition tomorrow, most of them aren't really interested. Some even don't want to reply my sms. Few days ago someone can tell me he's not free yet he's asking around the class today to watch movie on e same day of mine. haiss..

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Wednesday, May 30, 2007.

Recently i felt so burdened for many things. Studies, pos, my spiritual life etc.. The time that i really feel extremely tired physically and emotionally, as i have been so occupied and certain things happen in pos.

Today during pos, there were certain part of the training i felt wasn't quite right. i felt so burden that today is already the last training, and the whole sequence is still so messy, stunts aren't up, dance aren't perfect and everything.

This thought just came to me when i am thinking about why this year pos is extremely hard for the members and and ICs. When we come together for pos, it's really the unity especially among the leaders. What i really felt that there is a certain lack of unity and love among the ICs. This year is the 3rd year i join pos. I seen how the leaders can work together for the past 2 years. but this year, something is just not right. i think it's the working style.

When just now i read edmund's blog, it just make me realise i really need to let go of certain things and thoughts in my life, so that it won't lead to a distraction to me. yeah..

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Tuesday, May 29, 2007.

i miss her as my flyer.
i miss the times when my tower will come together and train.
i miss samantha...

It just happen to fast and unprepared.

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Monday, May 28, 2007.

all of us are tired... i think this year POS is the toughest compare to the past 2 years that i joined. There are many challenges and spiritual warfares going on in the pos and in the members lives. But God, you are our strength for us to carry on the race to the end!

{ 2:07:00 AM }

Sunday, May 27, 2007.

My prayer...

LORD, i pray please heal samantha. Take away every pain that she is going through. Bring miracles to her injuries. You are Johovah Rapha, our Healer. I pray that You bring peace upon her heart, and upon joshua and zhi hao and mine heart. So much things have happened to our school. It's a spiritual warfare, that the devil has come against us and Your power.

I feel disappointed and discouraged that we have put in so much time and sacrifices for POS, for our stunt tower, the bonding that we had build, and it end up to be like this.

But God, i still trust and have faith in You for healing and miracles to come upon her. Breakthrough is near for us and for her. Give her peace, rest and comfort. Everything she did and sacrifice is for You.

In You, i will rejoice.

I thank You in advance for healings and miracles that came upon her!

In Jesus name i prayed, AMEN!

{ 11:59:00 PM }

miss...

I miss those days that we had spent together 2 years ago...

Once in a while you still appear in front of me and we'll say "hi" to one another, but i still miss the days, the short 2 months plus that we and we all had.

the fellowshipping..
the training..
the talking..
the walking..
the sharing..
the waiting..
the concerning..

Certainly, you are someone that i'll never forget. You may not have done great things that have impact my life so much. but you are indeed someone special in my heart...

{ 2:02:00 AM }

Saturday, May 26, 2007.

God, save me...

a time that i want to tell God, "give me some more time..."
a time that i hope for more sleep...
a time that i felt burden for my studies...
a time of stretching and expanding my capacity...
a time that i must not lose focus inspite of the busyness...
a time of asking God for strength...
a time of breakthrough...
a time of stepping out of my comfort zone...

God, save me!!! now is already 1.41am, i still can't sleep because of assignment need to do. and later i still need to wake up at 7 plus to help out at Jams church at 9am.

{ 1:04:00 AM }

Monday, May 21, 2007.

lessons on Sermon on the mount had really convicted my heart to love God even more and move into another level in my spirtual lfe. I just want to love God even more. I just want to come before God to be more broken. I just want to do things that are pleasing to God. I just want to draw closer to God. He's my Life, my Everything, all of my days i'll never want to leave Him. For all the services of SOTM that i have gone, never once i wasn't being touched my God. I began to tear and tear..

{ 2:20:00 AM }

Sunday, May 20, 2007.

Thank God for healing! The pain when i walk just gone overnight and it take less than 1 week to heal completely. PTL!

Just now after service, i went to ping ting's 21st b'day celebration at downtown east. Long time never see her liao... = )

{ 1:31:00 AM }

Thursday, May 17, 2007.

Pain...

I sprained my ankle while doing toe touch today...

Ahhh.. Is pain de loh... =(

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007.

One of the worst situation you could ever have is you have parent who is a baptised Christian questioned about your commitment in Church, questioned you, "Is church very important?", "Church more important or home more important?" ... etc... What can i say? I know i have been spending very very little time with family recently because of commitments in many things, but sometimes i do feel sad to hear all these from my father.

{ 12:22:00 AM }

Sunday, May 13, 2007.

Today we had our 2nd POS preview. We did quite badly actually. The dance not up, the cheer n actions not well prepared today. Even we thought that our stunts can pull us up, but other schools did more astounding stunts. Next sunday is our 3rd preview and we still haven't start learning the dance...

Next, i really need to discipline myself to start doing revision for my studies. I cannot slack like last year. i want to go uni! My initially aim is SMU, but now i want to go NTU! So i must study harder!

Today i bought another pair of slippers...

{ 11:00:00 PM }

Saturday, May 12, 2007.

Yes! Breakthrough!

During cgm through yue ze God spoke to me...

"... I have seen and know what you have done... "
"... This year will be a year of breakthrough..."

I got STM and because of the guitar volume, i can't really catch some part of what yueze said and can't recall the rest of what he said. But the word of comfirmation from God and His presence in the cgm really touched me so much that i was crying and crying as i worshipped-BE PASSIONATE!!

As i was walking home just now, i received 1 revelation from God and reminds me of one verse in the Bible. Mark 10: 15-16, "Assuredly i say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it." And He took them up in His arms, laid His hands on them, and blessed them. Children are humble, always excited and interested to know the things that happen around them, go to their daddy and mummy and ask alot of questions, and they will get answered. Recently when i have questions in my mind and began to ask God, God began to speak to me and answered all my questions. All of us have many thoughts, doubts and questions in our mind, it's when we began to seek God alone just like the little children always seek their parents for answers to their questions, we can find God, have Him speaking to us, and answered all our questions.- The child-like attitude

This few days and weeks God have been speaking to me and encoursging me.. about my walk with Him (shall continue...)

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Sunday, May 06, 2007.

Today service was really awesome man! Sermon on the Mount, 1st lesson by Pst Kong. Talked about Beatitudes.. 1 of it, "blessed are the poor in spirit." During the last part when we worship and pray, i was tearing and tearing so much. actually alot did.. God just touched and moved so mightily in my heart.

Yes! God spoke to me.. And i just want to draw closer to God, want to experience Him in a greater way!

Then after service we went changi airport to fellowship. We had burger king again! omg. In the afternoon before going to sun's autograph session, we went mac... haha..

{ 1:21:00 AM }

Friday, May 04, 2007.

Just now i was chatting with shalynne. I really love talking to her.. She told me something about the person that i like. My decision is YES! i got to let go and forget of the feeling. I am still young anyway! = )

What i really want to do is to build up my character, focus on God, a closer relationship with Him & rise up!!

I watched spiderman today! Waiting for Shrek 3.. I want to watch!

{ 12:55:00 AM }

Wednesday, May 02, 2007.

Family Day @ Expo

SUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today we had our Family Day at expo! Enjoy lots.. Because of the new friends, carnival, sun's concert, fellowship @ changi village!

i had posted the photos i took during the concert on my multiply @ silverstarss.multiply.com .. but more to be added! = )

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