Thursday, September 28, 2006.

In class......

sianzz.. last lesson of the day le... class will end at 5pm... nothing to do... lols... i am very excited!!! My uncle blessing me a laptop!! Going to get it soon! yeah.. = )

{ 4:18:00 PM }

Wednesday, September 27, 2006.

3rd day of school... sianzzz.. i was sleeping in lecture today... hehes.. After school went to bugis walk walk but i had nothing to buy.. Then i went to east coast, sat at the stone there and enjoy the sea breeze.. I left east coast at around 6.30pm and took bus 36 to suntec for bs, started at 8pm... I reach there at around 7.30... So waited for xueting, yixuan, eunice and hong yun at suntec office below and go up together... After bs, bro mj talk to me... i actually felt much better and didn't think so much after that... yup yup..

I want to grow more in the Lord, to serve Him... I am still young.. talk about relationship later ba.. hehes...

But i hope our friendship will grow... I miss how we chat so much online and through sms... and go out together... yup.. hope to cya soon! = )

{ 11:41:00 PM }

Monday, September 25, 2006.

I love youu!!!

After 1 week that we never meet each other... Today we broke up... through sms... He said that we should remain close friends first for now... True enough... It's not unexpected because i know one day it will happen... but i didn't expect to be so fast... I just hope i could spend a longer time with him as someone close to me... yet our relationship ended just like that... I know that he did think that we can remain close friend first and know each other better first and see how... but somehow it's impossible for me to get back to a relationship with him again le... My heart wants but i choose not to... unless it's God's will... because i want to walk right in God... I am struggling so much in my spiritual life... but i want go back to God... i will never leave God... I want to choose God over him...

No matter how i want to hold my tears.. In the end, my tears just flow down... I love you so much dear! I just love you so much!! I hope you can hold me in your arms again.. I hope we could kiss each other so passionately again... I hope to hear those sweet words from you... I want to tell how much i love you... and i want to hear you telling me how much you love me... But i know it will never happen anymore... I really miss the times we spent together with each other... really miss... No matter what we are going to do again next time.. go out, watch movie, go camp together, pitch tent...... The feeling will never never be the same again...

God, please give me some time to get over it... I want a breakthrough...

{ 11:46:00 PM }

"We just simply don't understand each other well enough lo i find. We tried le. I know you put in alot of effort too. But just felt like doesn't seem to work out lei. -_-" "

...... Is that so...?

{ 10:25:00 AM }

Thursday, September 14, 2006.

Today is my 1st month anniversary with my dear... I love you!! Sadly, we didn't meet today and didn't celebrate because he had work from morning until around 6.30pm.. Then he said that he need to meet his insurance agent... He said that we meet out tomorrow instead... I felt a little disappointed actually that we did not celebrate it today.. and even want to go out tomorrow, we can't even decide where to go... Just now we were talking through sms and deciding where to go.. and half way he never reply me and stop sms me le... So right now i still don't know where are we going tomorrow other than, he said, suntec... Many thoughts and questions start to come to my mind, thinking about our relationship and thinking how our relationship is going on... I really have no idea and began to question myself that am i thinking too much?

I am still waiting for him to reply me and thinking will it be the next morning then i receive his sms again... -_-" haizz..

So today i went out with meiyin.. I met her at clementi at 2 plus for lunch at mac.. then we went kbox at there.. We started singing at around 2.30pm and left kbox at around 6.30pm ba... We took bus to suntec and we walk around... She bought a shoe.. and we went to bras basah.. wanted to go to the popular there but was closed already.. then we went to MPH at raffles city.. I wanted to find a book for my dear but can't find... So we went home at around 9 plus...

{ 11:34:00 PM }

Tuesday, September 05, 2006.

Today I went to suntec and brought my phone to repair... After 2 months since my phone spoil then until now i sent it for repair.. haha.. I can collect it by tomorrow 2pm..

{ 11:04:00 PM }