Saturday, January 31, 2009.

CNY:
this year cny was rather quiet and fast. Some relatives that i had been visiting for the past few years vanished this year. The economic situation is still in its low point. Therefore, lesser ang baos and lesser harvest! :((( The total sum isn't enough to give my 1 month BF, or not even enough for half a month. *sob sob*

It was still a time of fun and rest. Spend the whole 2nd day of cny nua-ing at justin house, or can say in his small cozy room. We sat there the entire day chatting, playing ji niu nai game, poker card and monopoly. had alot of fun still! well, i am easily satisfied as long as quality time is spend.

Work:
Ending in exactly 2 weeks time. i already starting to send out resumes. This time round, no more recruit express and no more temps!! I want to get a stable and per, job. I must really pray hard for a GOOD one to come soon soon soon! no admin please!

Dialect drama:
1 more week to the actual show. It has been a good experience. I thank God for the opportunity to serve more. Through this i get to know more people from choir and else where in church. I invited my mum to the drama on that day, and she agreed to come! thank God!!! :)) i invited her to several events in church, but she never want to go. this time round, she did not really ponder before she agree. PTL!!

Friendship/relationship:
I love having friends around me. my love laguages are quality time and physical touch. Without them, i wouldn't feel love. haha! i treasure my loveliess girls whom i spend out together most of the time. i treasure the new friends in my life too.
For relationship, im still young! :DD but looking around already kz.. constantly updating my list of prospects.

Ahhh... 1 month has passed and i haven't set goals for this year.. My goal card is still left untouched. Gotta start doing now!

so much to catch up......


:))

{ 12:18:00 PM }

Wednesday, January 28, 2009.

He was dropped into a deserted pool of water where all the rejected ones were there.
mixture of different skins, tones, colours, smells.

Someone came to rescue him just in time.
A little mouthful of water and an after shocked is all he had.
He survive!
i am glad that he is as strong as me.


- MY DEAR PHONE

{ 3:01:00 PM }

Sunday, January 25, 2009.

农历新年就快要到临了！我心里感到无比地兴奋！因为有了那两天的假期，周末反复延长了。而且，一想到那一包包红红的收获，我也更加地期待。我很现实！哈哈！

其实，不只是这样，新年也能让所有亲朋好友来聚集在一起。

:DDD

{ 4:18:00 AM }

Wednesday, January 21, 2009.

Uncertainty

I've counted...
23 more days and i will be unemployed officially.

Happy yet uncertain at the same time.

i am looking forward to the resting days,
and a changed environment.
but the market is so bad.
still in BF season.
will another one come in time??

I trust God.

{ 11:42:00 AM }

My Room Spring Cleaning...
3/4 done!!!
:DDD

{ 1:17:00 AM }

Tuesday, January 20, 2009.

Hair shrink...

It was a disaster before my hair shrinked.
They just want to stay with each other so much that stick together so closely and tightly,
they were so hard to separate.
They were being forced to separate,
finally, they did...

{ 12:48:00 AM }

Monday, January 19, 2009.

Some things that sha, jiji, gerald, eunice & i agreed together...

"As we grow older,
the more busier we'll get...
the lesser slp we'll have..."

Isn't it so true?

I always complain that i do not have enough sleep... but as i hear that every successful leader whether in our church or business, they sleep rather late and wake up very early like 5,6 am to plan the rest of their day.

I am starting to convince that sleeping early and waking up early is part of an healthy lifestyle. Not just a lifestyle, but we ourselves will feel healthier and better.

MJ: If we wake up at 9, 10, 11am in the morning, half of the day has already wasted.

:)

{ 12:23:00 PM }

Sunday, January 18, 2009.

It has been rather a tiring week for me especially this few days.
Anyway, i still sleep this late.
it's 1.40am now...

Pst Tan really shared a really good word that insipred n touched me. I really need to spend even more time in God's presence alone. He needs our fellowship with Him, and we do really need Him. I know that i need Him and i do love His presence, when sometimes i find myself struggling to really pray and spend time with Him. Sometimes we will put every other things above that little time that we can spend with God, and in the end you ended up feeling tired. I really want to love praying and spending time with Him so much that it'll become a lifestyle for me!

This few days.. there were quite several things happened in my cell group members' lives.
As i begin to think... what is our lives going to be. God has gave us this life, what shall we do with it? how can we waste the life that He has created just like that? Not doing anything special...

1. my member losing someone dear to her.
2. another member suffered miscarriage.

live this life to the fullest!

i want to be there more for my members this year. i had missed out alot of the them, when they need someone to be there with them i was not there. i want to love them more...

it's 1.58am. and my eyes r like closing...

:DD

{ 1:32:00 AM }

Saturday, January 17, 2009.

I really wonder why they just don't understand what i really need now......

{ 12:42:00 AM }

so dead!

I have nowhere to SCREAM!!!
AhhhhhhHH!
SO I WILL SCREAMMM HEREEEE!!!

Tomorrow i have to reach hougang at 745AM.
So means i have to WAKE UP AT 515AM!!!!

AHHHHHH!!!!

:''(((

{ 12:22:00 AM }

Friday, January 16, 2009.

星期五终于快要到来了！！但是我想大概抽不出时间来休息吧。我的周末也被塞得仿佛已经是看不见空洞了。今天和明天都有廣东福建教会的新春舞台剧彩排。我们今天跳得还算不错，但还有更要在加强的部分。我真得需要再舞蹈技术方面多加练习，能够在舞姿上更多于开放。

我的华语程度是真得需要进步了。只是写这短短的几行字就花我那么多的时间。

好了。。 我该去睡了。晚安！

:))

{ 12:45:00 AM }

Wednesday, January 14, 2009.

我也想要用华语来写我的部落格日记。一方面，我相信大多数的读者都不会去一个字一个字得去读。那我就可以比较放心的去写，不会引来许多的疑问。另一方面，我想信你因该是不会了解这些文字吧。而且我的华文程度有稍微得退步了，要写完这一篇也要花我大半个小时。

力不从心。。。有一百万件事情在等我去做，可是感觉还是那么的疲累。。。

从不熟，现在也已尽变得越来越疏远了。心中还有些纳闷，也快要没有把握了。我的视线也开始转移，那原本兴奋的心情也已近慢慢得平息了。

{ 10:11:00 PM }

Tuesday, January 13, 2009.

what we could say and talk in the past...
now we seem so lost in a conversation.

i wanted to know you and i thought i could know you more.
it seems like it's not happening...

and this quietens what i feel in my heart too...

{ 12:27:00 AM }

Monday, January 12, 2009.

It's a long day today... so tired!
Choir, service, drama rehearsal...

I'm not a good dancer by talent, that's why there's a need to work extra hard... I still make a lot of mistakes in the dances which i can't see them myself...

I think i'm going to be so dead tired in the coming week!

Choir practice, and rehearsals on thursday and friday...

13 Feb, PLEASE COME FASTER...!

{ 12:50:00 AM }

Saturday, January 10, 2009.

My favourite past time

After 2 weeks of broke-ness...
finally break away from it!

I had a small Retail Theraphy in the evening at Bugis.
2 tops, 1 stocking, 1 watch...
cost $41 altogether.

i love it~~
weeeeeeee~~~

{ 2:16:00 AM }

Friday, January 09, 2009.

A Style-phile Choir

The City Harvest Choir has existed for almost as long as the church itself. They have been serving faithfully, week after week, throughout the years.

Quiz any choir member about the vision and goal of the choir and they will tell you, with no hesitation, that they exist to build up the spiritual atmosphere of the worship and to provide visual impact for the congregation.

Standing on the platform on stage, the choir is a constant feature depicting praise and worship, an element that the congregation looks to and follow in terms of trend, fashion, even in the style of praise and worship.

Of late, the choir have been togged out in bolder and funkier garb, displaying style that is edgy and eye-catching. Gone are the days of the shapeless choir robe! The in-threads these days are denims and bold-printed tees — plus the piled-on bling! The choir is getting into the groove.

“Because God is a creative and stylish, we want to dress in a way that reflects His nature,” Cheryl Tan, 25, a human resource consultant.

“It’s not about the dressing; it’s really about being excellent in dressing your best and looking good and sharp at all times. Even when you are casual, you are stylishly casual,” says Wong Hexing, 19, a student.

“We represent Jesus here on earth, and we don’t want to give people the impression that the church is full of outdated people. We are actually very contemporary people who reflect our times. Jesus was a very radical person in His time, we should have that same spirit in us, to be able to shape and transform our culture and our world,” says entrepreneur and choir member Kelly Tang.

So how does the choir keep abreast of fashion that is relevant and contemporary?

Celine Tien, 18, student, recommends foreign fashion magazines, particularly Japanese magazines, such as Kawai and Vivi (available at Kinokuniya bookstore). She also reveals that the web is a really good source of inspiration. Others get their fashion inspiration from celebrities, via magazines like Life & Style and People.

James Poh, 27, an interior designer, get his inspiration walking down Orchard Road and looking at the window displays for the latest trends, which he incorporate into his personal style.

“You can’t just clone someone’s style wholesale,” says Tan. “The idea is to pick something that makes you look good. It’s great to dress up and come fresh and happy on Sunday morning to praise God!”

The choir members agree on one thing: you have to be comfortable in whatever clothes you wear, and more importantly, you need to be comfortable in your own skin. Confidence is the key to looking good on and off stage.

from: CityNews
http://www.chc.org.sg/citynews/?p=7119

{ 12:09:00 AM }

Thursday, January 08, 2009.

最近生活上的压力在缠绕着我的思绪。只有在那无人安静的空间，我揭开一直再压抑的心情。我真得不想一直这样得喊累。只要有一个紧紧的拥抱就足够了。

这道墙，能够打倒吗？我算认识你吗？

{ 1:48:00 AM }

Dancing...

We had dance practice earlier on to drill up our dance for the dialect cny drama. It was rather a good practice with every individual weakness being pointed up and drilled on. I must really be more open up in dancing though! let go... and practice more to the mirror at home.

i am not talented in dancing, not good in movements.. but i was exposed quite several times to dance. it's fun dancing!

i believe we will put up a good one this sunday!

:))

{ 1:20:00 AM }

Wednesday, January 07, 2009.

DISC

i just did the DISC personality test.

i become a S,C from a S,I?

trying to get back on the track...

{ 1:40:00 AM }

Tuesday, January 06, 2009.

the best thing underneath the twinkling stars...
my heart desires to be close to you...

{ 12:45:00 AM }

Monday, January 05, 2009.

After a long night of dialect drama rehearsal yesterday, i thank God for the 5 minutes car ride home from church. :) i settled down quickly to do my usual stuff after i reached home. i love the night, i enjoy the quietness... and everyday as i am doing my things, too often i will forget about the time. After that i turned on the music and begin to worship God in my room, spent time in His presence. (although my brain was like going to shut off...)

Singing of God is... My life Your song.. and God of my forever......

God really is my entire life till forever. My relationship with God has been going on for 5 years. To walk with God and live as a real Christian is really not so easy like a bed of roses. sometimes are smiles, sometimes are tears. sometimes it just get so hard going. As every year goes by, we become more mature and it sets an increasing standard in our walk and what we are going to do. At times, it gets rather easy for us to forget that our relationship with God comes before serving God and ministry.

last year was rather hard to breakthrough for me, because somehow i had forgotten perhaps.

Now, it's already 2009. Everyone is always excited when it comes to a new year. Everything's going to start fresh. Many unachieved goals and dreams, i have to bring it forward. It really got into me that i really really want a better year this year. Every single goals and dreams that i have listed out, i want to take the steps to work towards it. Overcoming every fears and procrastination. Also, I don't want to forget anymore.

Anyway, i still think that i don't really know you... God, i need Your hands!!

{ 8:39:00 AM }

it's so so itchy!!

Now i understand those aren't mosquito bites...
bed bugssssss!!

Guess how many???
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1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9, ............ 30.
and anymore after that i stop counting.

omgoat! 1st time in my life...

:O

{ 12:57:00 AM }

Sunday, January 04, 2009.

it's going to be better...

When everything is not going anywhere peaceful...
it's rather not easy to go through.

Any word that i could utter is not going to be useful.
Yes, i want to shine.
God is the only way...

I just want to be better...
Yes, Better!

{ 1:08:00 AM }

Friday, January 02, 2009.

Yui - Tokyo

住みなれた　この部屋を
出てゆく日が来た
新しい旅だちに　まだ戸惑ってる

駅まで向かうバスの中
友達にメールした

朝のホームで　電話もしてみた
でもなんか　違う気がした

古いギターをひとつ持ってきた
写真は全部　置いてきた

何かを手放して　そして手にいれる
そんな繰り返しかな?

つよがりは　いつだって　夢に続いてる
臆病になったら　そこで途切れるよ

走りだした電車の中
少しだけ泣けてきた

窓の外に続いてる　この町は
かわらないでと願った

古いギターをアタシにくれたひと
東京は怖いって言ってた

答えを探すのは　もうやめた
間違いだらけでいい

赤い夕焼けがビルに途切れた
涙をこらえても

次の朝がやってくるたびごとに
迷うことだってあるよね?

正しいことばかり選べない
それくらいわかってる


Today I have to leave this old room of mine.
I'm still unsure about this new journey.

On the bus ride to the train station,
I text-messaged my friends.

At the station I tried calling someone,
But something felt different about it all.
All I brought with me was an old guitar,
Leaving the rest of my old life behind.

I take something and I get something,
I ponder that cycle in my heart.

I always try to hide my fears in my dreams.
When get afraid, I can't seem to do anything.

I got on the train, it rushed away,
And I slowly started to cry.

Life in my town continued on outside.
I prayed that it'd never change.
The man who gave me my old guitar
Told me Tokyo is a scary place.

I've stopped looking for all the answers.
It's okay to have some flaws.

Those grey skyscrapers blocked the setting sun.
Even if I endure these tears today,
Won't tomorrow's cold morning hold more doubt?

I can't choose the right thing,
At least I know that much.

{ 2:44:00 AM }

What's a new year without a new blog skin!!

:DD

{ 1:35:00 AM }

Thursday, January 01, 2009.

Happy New Year!!!!
It's 2009!!!

2008 passed so quickly and 2009 has come!

I want to thank God for many things that happened in 2008...
- Graduation from SP.
- Constant financial blessings from my grandma and aunt. without them, i don't think i can make it finacially during my school days.
- Part of SP Gusto team, being part of Cheerobics, performances, events. knowing great and fun people there.
- Being able to go for SOT
- Full financial sponsor for my SOT school fees from my uncle. Hence, i did not need to worry about it then.
- Great friends that i make in SOT. some of them are just my very very good friends now.
- The move of Holy spirit during SOT days in my life. I learn how to move in the Spirit more, and i got to do what i had never done before and what i never thought i could do.
- My first mission trip to KK.
- A great cgl who constantly support and encourages me. Always believes in me when sometimes i do not believe in myself.
- Great cellgroup members and my fellow connect group leaders. Jiji, eunice, adora, gerald... who really makes a great support and friends in my life.
- Opportunity to serve even more in choir.
- Making more wonderful friends in choir.
- Opportunity to lead in a game in my zone camp this year.
- A good job although it's temporary. Opportunity to do what i did not learn in school.
- Dreams and visions that God constantly put in me.
- greater love and capacity towards my connect group members.
- My fruits in my connect group remained, growing and loving God more.
- last of all, i am 21 years old!!!


My New Year's Resolutions and things i hoped to achieve...
- Love God and people even more. i want to have greater capacity and fruitfulness in my life.
- Be more faithful and constant in my prayer life and in studying the word of God.
- More fruits in my connect group.
- Balance up my life in the areas of God, ministry, cellgroup, family and work. i really need!
- Go for singing class in hai die (Ocean Butterfly), improve in my singing techniques and ability.
- Learn Japanese language
- Go for Driving lessons
- Lose weight to ... kg :X
- Greater ability to overcome certain fears in my life. Greater trust and faith in God.
- Be a better testimony in my home, work and everywhere i go.
- Closer relationship with my parents.
- My mum to be more open up to Christianity and me.
- Shine!
- Greater wisdom and maturity.
- Rise up in ministry
- Go overseas for holiday at least twice this year. In my mind.. Bangkok, Hong kong, taiwan for now.
- Save more money yet breakthrough and prosper financially.

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more to update...

I really believe that greater things have yet to come! And 2009 is going to be a great year to go through!!!!

:DD

{ 11:08:00 AM }