Sunday, November 29, 2009.

i am trying to deny that i miss you so much......

{ 1:54:00 AM }

Friday, November 20, 2009.

Yesterday me and love beef went to fetch laopa & barney at airport! hahaha! :D misses them esp laopa! :DDD seeing laopa bought back so many things... omg! all in big box and bag! but he bought back things for us.... weeeeee~ i think this is gonna be a nice break....

I can't wait for the bangkok trip with love beef and her friends. Flying off on coming monday... coming back on friday night... i guess i will spend so much money there already!!!

:D


i kinda thinking...

{ 11:17:00 AM }

Wednesday, November 18, 2009.

Sometimes, i really feel like forsaking everything...... really so tired...

when every step i climb, it's getting harder. I feel stuck, so stuck at this level, and have no idea how to reach for the next step up.

Dreams and visions still in me, yet it just seem so far.

seriously... feel like letting go everything.

But when i think of God's love,
i still hold on to everything, which is HIM.

even though i doubt my love and passion for Him now...

{ 12:36:00 AM }

Monday, November 16, 2009.

Sometimes i will really want.......

a warm hand to hold on to me...
a broad shoulder that i can lay my head...
a tight hug that makes me feel warm...
a kiss that makes me go weak...
a smile that can turn my worst day to the best day...
a word that will keep me going...

a MAN that will love me...
(not just a guy or boy)

:)

when when when.....?

{ 9:13:00 PM }

Thursday, November 12, 2009.

mummy.
can you stop pressing me for money.
i will definitely give you,
but i don't owe you.

don't be so selfish.

{ 10:25:00 AM }

I have never learnt how to defend myself since young.
when my parents scolded me, never could i utter a word.

till now....
i still never learn how to defend for myself.

i really don't want to bother anymore.
hates egoistic and selfish people.

{ 1:21:00 AM }

i just feel like sleeping my life......
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!

{ 1:17:00 AM }

i just feel like sleeping my life......
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!

{ 1:17:00 AM }

Tuesday, November 10, 2009.

life's good!

what makes a fuller life for me?

a heart that is full of love.
a spirit that is full of life of God.
a life that is full of discipline.
a soul that is full of boldness and confidence.
a voice that is so alluring.
a body that is so beautiful and slim.
a smile that is so wide and genuine.
a mind that is full of divine wisdom and knowledge.
a personality that is so attractive.
a dream that is thrown by God and i caught it.
a day that is so fun.
a pocket that is so fill with abundance of money.

i really do hope for my parents to be richer!
although i know my Daddy God owns all the richest and glory of the whole universe.

It's all up to me to grab all these things!!!!

{ 3:14:00 PM }

Monday, November 09, 2009.

i was really smiling all i could.
i was really jumping as excitedly as the rest.
i was grooving all i know how.

at least this was what in my heart...
i thought...

i know not 100%.

*sigh sigh*

JIA YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
be better!!!!
:DDDDDDDDDDD

Anyway, i had a great day today with justin laopa, dequan, nai, sk, james, jiexiang, joseph choo, aaron, suee and rubez.. at quan's place!!! Overdose of mac!!! HEHE! and the moments we laughed until we cry.. worship and praise God in the small and cozy room! :DDDDDDDD LOVE!

{ 1:31:00 AM }

Tuesday, November 03, 2009.

Very often the fear that has been gripping on to us comes from the environment we have been living in and the experiences we go through since young... from where... our family, our parents...

{ 4:31:00 PM }

Monday, November 02, 2009.

last night,
terrible feeling..
is what i can say...

so many thoughts running through my mind.
Devil brought back all my past disappointments and hurts to hit me just for one event yesterday, trying to put me down.
i was afraid.
cried.
this is what the stupid devil will do.

i really need to get into the habit and discipline to pray.
always turn towards my daddy God.

woke up in the morning,
it just don't bother me anymore.
expectations of myself and to others are not there anymore.

i was being there, merely giving to the extent i was able to give.
i didn't do much.

continue to give and love.
not expecting what would be returned by man.
because God knows and has seen the heart.

:))))

sorethroat now.
hope it doesn't go worse...

{ 7:30:00 AM }

Sunday, November 01, 2009.

when in the end you don't hear anything.......
probably i really didn't do anything......

:)

through all the disappointments and fears,
never forget to continue smiling while still climbing back.
maybe once in a while behind the scenes,
nobody is around,
tears still fall.

You can't have everyone as your good friends.
this is what i heard and learnt.

{ 11:18:00 PM }