Monday, March 31, 2008.

yesterday msg...
STOP PROCRASTINATE
it really hits me after i have been procrastinating too much over so many things.


"when i say it doesn't matter so much to me anymore... how true is it? Is that how my heart goes...?"

{ 1:05:00 AM }

Sunday, March 30, 2008.

SOT is starting just next week,
and i am super super excited!!

As i think back, it was God who give me the vision of going SOT in 2008. it impressed in my heart since then and i had put down as one of my goals for this year.
Thank God everything come to past! Thank God that He has provide me the fees, which i don't really need to worry about.

However, the decision and desire to go into SOT is definitely still a challenge and sacrifice. The pressure from my family and relatives of wanting me to start a full-time career. they allow me to go for SOT, but on the other side they aren't really supportive. financial support is my greatest worry for now... for my daily expenses and expenses on course notes etc. i won't be getting any allowance from my parents or my grandma. i don't want to get from them too. it's not easy to find a part time job with limited time to commit to it. There are so many commitments n stuffs, i have to prioritise them and eliminate some of it.
but it's ok! i will trust Him!
I will plan and prioritise my time well!
weeee~

:))

{ 5:26:00 PM }

Saturday, March 29, 2008.

people are telling me the font size is very small.
it's because i purposely to make it extra small.
so now is actually the normal font size.

:D

{ 2:22:00 AM }

Friday, March 28, 2008.

just my thoughts...

we are not perfect people.
i am not perfect.
i have my own strengths and you have your own strengths.
i have my own weaknesses and you have your own weaknesses.
it's good to have someone to tell me the areas of my problems.
changes take time...
and everyone will need someone who is patient to teach, and ownself to be willing to learn and receive.
it shouldn't be by comparing with other people.
it doesn't discourage too.
A true friend don't despise,
but is one who speak and help too.
and one who's able to encourage plays a large part.

I'm placed by God to be a leader but it has never easy for me. Surely, 99% comes from my heart and 1% comes from talent. i'm never talented, but i desire to be one. and i am willing to learn and change.. still learning... learning not to look back at my background when i just set off, learning to be more bold, learning not to feel insecure, learning to open up more, learning to lean on God and not myself, learning to know God more... so much to learn, so much that's yet to entirely overcome.

i want to let God continue to mould me.. someone who is like a butterfly that metamorphosis..
i am just so so imperfect.. therefore a teachable spirit, greater willingness and a bigger heart is something that i aim to have the most. without all these, what more can i receive...?

yea, i am not someone who is easy to love.

all of us come from different background and are made of different personality, therefore accept everyone's differences. i am just who i am now even though im not perfect. can you still accept?

friend, learn what's really encouragement.
when does an encouragement most precious and appreciated?
good intention but wrong words sometimes...
i hope you understand.

and

same friend, i appreciate you a lot
despite of all differences...
thanks~
:DD

{ 12:49:00 AM }

Thursday, March 27, 2008.

i finally change to a new blog skin!!!
even though i don't really like too much of navigation,
prefer everything to be one page.
but when i see this skin, i think it's quite cool and nice!
i did this until 4 plus am in the morning... lol
nothing better to do huh...?

weeee~

:O

{ 12:15:00 PM }

Wednesday, March 26, 2008.

SOT will officially start on 7 April 2008!!
well, it's 2 weeks to SOT. right now, i'm seriously considering and planning for my schedules and commitment for this period.

monday: SOT lesson
tuesday: SOT lesson
wednesday: SOT lesson, ministry
thursday: SOT lesson
friday: SOT lesson, cgm
saturday: service, ministry
sunday: service, ministry

fyi, SOT is from 845am to 1pm, monday to friday + cgm + 2 days service + ministry.

i only have 4 half days to put in work + cheerleading trainings.
i still need some free time to do SOT assignments and everything.
what will my plans be? still thinking...
hmmm...
lols

:))

{ 1:58:00 AM }

Tuesday, March 25, 2008.

COGLs (missing: gerald). anw, he can't be there too because we are in girls toilet... lols

cogls + my dear cherlyn...
:DD

{ 2:52:00 AM }

slack whole day at home...
my photos in my laptop are all over the place, messy...
i spent my whole day doing nothing but compile and rearrange the photos.
hehe...

By the way on saturday while travelling back home with my cg members, we saw this someone who is the center of attraction there in the train.
My members were all laughing secretly... super cute eh!
YOU MUST TAKE A CLOSE LOOK AT HIS DRESSING WOH! :O

{ 2:18:00 AM }

Sunday, March 23, 2008.

Friday

went to sentosa for a time of sun tanning. Praise God for good sun!! but anyway i got burnt also... pain siol! -_-

Saturday

the drama over at expo services was fantastic! iMing... PTL! even this morning i only prayed a short prayer for her, but God has indeed answer my prayer.

{ 12:32:00 AM }

Tuesday, March 18, 2008.

as time passes, i come to a point that i have graduated from school which will not be a "just graduated". i come to a dilema for my commitment to gusto trainings in the future. i can still go for trainings but how long can i really stay in gusto? what can i really do there...? the fact that i love the people too much and i love cheerleading that i don't bear to leave, but i have really graduated. so HOW? i don't really know and i am considering...

:(

{ 2:00:00 AM }

Today huiwen, me, wp and chen cheng went to recki for sofa for clubhouse.
We got a 2nd hand sofa from a neighbourhood furniture shop
@ $170 inclusive of delivery charge!
TELL YOU!! the sofa is NICE one loh!!
cheap siol!!!
we went to bargain like don't know how long de...
weeeee~


"i need to break that something out of me... just feeling something not right..."

{ 1:39:00 AM }

Monday, March 17, 2008.

CHEEROBICS 2008

GUSTO!

ALL STUNTS UP!!!
Weeeee~

I know we can do it!
We are, we are, we are gonna lead!
G-U-S-T-O
Mighty, mighty, mighty fight fight!
G-U-S-T-O
Ready, steady, let's go!
(one more time!)
Ready, steady, let's go!!!!

Weeeee~
You all did awesome today man!!
the whole of today and yesterday we were all still gan chiong,
only till the last min, you all just given out everything!
All stunts went up nice!
even though we were challenging a lot of the more experience and zai teams,
we still feel great.
because we have given our best!

We all gonna win top 3 in cheerobics next year!!
:DD

{ 12:47:00 AM }

Sunday, March 16, 2008.

GUSTO!!
for the last few hours to
CHEEROBICS!!!
jia you all the waaaay!!!

Start 5pm @ kallang leisure park.
Be in school by 8am.

All stunts UP!!
Yea!!!

Excited!!

:DD

{ 1:01:00 AM }

Thursday, March 13, 2008.

weeee~
finally can access to internet & msn from my office!!
:O

{ 11:12:00 AM }

Monday, March 10, 2008.

if you ask me what i really want to do now...?

i can say......
i don't really want to work now, to be more free to enjoy my life to the max.

i love it if i can wake up every morning, feeling energetic and refreshed as i see the brightness of the sun.
i love it if i can go down to the town to shop and hangout full day with my friends.
i love it if i can have late-night-outs with my friends.
i love it if i can go soak myself in the pool and sun tan.
i love it if i can hog on to a mic in a ktv right now.
i love it if i can go for a walk along a beach.
i love it if i can plug in to my mp3, sit in a cafe alone to read a book.
i love it if i can slack at home and spend more time with my family.

it seems so impossible...
haha...

man, it's so wrong to be awake at this kind of time when i having work tomorrow!
:0

{ 3:52:00 AM }

Friday, March 07, 2008.

Gary 曹格 - Super Sunshine

{ 1:39:00 AM }

CHEEROBICS IN 9 DAYS!!!
OMG!!!

it'll be next sunday...

So friends of any Gusto members or even you don't know us,
do come down and SUPPORT US!!

weeeee~

:DD

"everytime i think of this past memory, i hope that everything can be just a dream that had never happen before... it's just never a good one..."

{ 1:22:00 AM }

Thursday, March 06, 2008.

Opportunity from God...

yesterday, i went for job interview for the post Accounts Coordinator in church.
well, the interview was a little bit stressful as 2 of them who interviewed me bombed me a lot of questions! haha! some were tough la.. omg!! few of the questions, it took me quite long time to answer it...

Anyway, it is a privilege already to able to go for the interview. thanks sha & God for the opportunity. if God has given me this opportunity and open the door for the interview, i can believe that God will bring me into it! It's definitely a great great challenge.. full-time church staff eh!! plus min 3 years commitment... but of course i am willing to do it! pray for me yeah? and i will keep praying too!!

weeee~

:DD

{ 2:48:00 PM }

Wednesday, March 05, 2008.

my wishlist for now...

1) Cao ge's CD
2) FIR's CD
3) white, black, grey skinnies

weeee~

:DD

{ 2:11:00 AM }

thanks guys who actually come and encourage me!
i appreciate it!
loves~
i feel 110% ok now.
i believe we will get thru.
focus on the positive and not the negative.
:))

"i understand everything. we are just imperfect people and we will make mistakes. big and small. God still forgive, accept & love us for everytime we did something wrong that grieves Him. this is love. Are we able to carry this kind of love to the people around us even when they have did things that hurt us?"

PS: just my thoughts... not refering to particular person or people.

{ 12:10:00 AM }

Monday, March 03, 2008.

i know everything will be better.
i know God will bring a way to it.
i know everything will be over soon.
i believe all these are just temporary.

but now, when i see everything...
it just pierce through my heart and saddens me.
yes, i just feel like crying out.
was it my fault of being too rush to tell you so many things
or just because you couldn't understand.
we are part of this family.
when things are not going well now,
do you and you understand?
do you know my heart as i wanted to know her heart.

sorry, i have made things worst.

{ 1:05:00 AM }

Saturday, March 01, 2008.

New job
at
Health Science Authority (HSA).

Start work coming monday,
8.30am-6pm.
$6/hr.
=(

Praise God for job opportunity still!

Guys, please pray for me that i will get the job, Accounts Coordinator in church. i had send my resume in, still waiting for reply.

this extremely excites me! which is my salary for the previous job will bank into my acc by next week!

=DD

{ 2:52:00 AM }