Wednesday, December 31, 2008.

Before i go away from here to welcome 2009, i shall say thanks to all my friends who been through the year of 2008 with me.

New or old, close or not...

l LOVE YOU ALL!!!

:DDD

i shall write more when i am back!
off to eunice house!

{ 8:30:00 PM }

Tuesday, December 30, 2008.

so much thoughts going through my mind.
feelings not settling down.
memories not forgotten.
energy is draining.

what should i do?
can i say "unafraid, what's ahead..."?

i shall go and sleep now...

{ 2:22:00 AM }

this concludes my 21st b'day

It was rather a quiet birthday.
and this is my 21st b'day...
no party, no big crowd...

I want to thank cg for the jacket.
I want to thank lingli for the bear.
I want to thank chloe for the beautiful necklace.
I want to thank my father for the durian b'day cake.
I want to thank my brother for the crumpler bag.
I want to thank tongyan for her handmade softtoy n card, n t-shirt.
I want to thank kexin for the sweet sms.
I want to thank rubez, kexin, and tongyan for spending today with me.
I want to thank the people to send me wishes on fb, msn and blog.

and most of the people who send me wishes are those whom i am not very close to or i have not really seen them for a while. i am amazed...

:))

{ 12:37:00 AM }

Monday, December 29, 2008.

It's my birthday today...
and she's the first person who brought my mood down.
it's really hard to love her...

but i'll still love her...

{ 1:04:00 PM }

Five Love Languages

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		9
Quality Time:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

{ 4:20:00 AM }

Sunday, December 28, 2008.

Today service was an interview with Sun.
She is really a woman of inspiration. Her love, attitude, wisdom, works.. everything... she is amazing! When i hear about her life and experiences, it's just not easy. If you want to do great things, you really got to be hardworking... most of all the passion to do what you are going to do.

Anyway, thanks E369 for celebrating my birthday and the present.
:)

after service, some of us the older ones went to eat at hk cafe... our conversation revolves about prospect and getting boyfriend. who ask us we are yang men nu jiang.. lols! well, there're guys there though... haha ya, all of them knows mine. my leader keep asking me, "eh, are you really serious about it. if you are, i will really go and pray for you, and dig out all the information from that side." hahaha! hmmmm... but it's just not so easy that the person whom you like likes you too.

{ 2:52:00 AM }

I want to be an accountant.

but if you ask what's my greatest passion and dream...
It's to sing.
singing that will touch hearts and lives...

not good yet, but i will improve.

:)

{ 2:33:00 AM }

Thursday, December 25, 2008.

It's christmas time!!!
I didn't have a huge celebration this season.
didn't do anything too special...
but i think it's still a time of love and giving.
loving and giving to the people around me.

My department had gifts exchange...
so i have received quite many gifts.

It's getting nearer to the end of 2008 and the start of 2009.

As i see myself...
i may not be very outspoken.
i may not have many talents.
i may not be a very popular person.
i may not be very attractive.
but i know that i am good, unique and attractive in my own ways...
i love myself.

There're many times...
things doesn't turn out the way you want it to be.
people don't like you like how you like them.
you are still not who you want yourself to be.
expectations and hopes have not fulfilled.

and just like...
i like you.
but how about you?
i think i know nuts about you.
we are not even close.
i am not even someone you will say hi when you see me.
friends that don't talk more than 10 words face to face.
it feels like we're talking lesser and lesser these days.
like that how...
i am still looking and searching...

2009 will be a year of greater breakthrough for me.

{ 6:29:00 PM }

Wednesday, December 24, 2008.

i love chocolates!

It's going to be 3am and i am still awake!
It's X'MAS EVE!!!!

I had finally did x'mas shopping and bought some things to make gifts for my friends & colleagues. i bought chocolates and sweets... I spend quite a lot of money to buy everything.

One of the things that i have bought is.....
Liqueours Chocolates!!!
YUMMY!!!

:DD

{ 2:48:00 AM }

Tuesday, December 23, 2008.

I'm finding you...

shouting for......
SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
where are you....?

{ 7:33:00 AM }

This evening after work, i went to POD to meet sha and the rest of the cogls to plan for x'mas n friday's Bedazzled. I can forsee how siong this week is going to be.

As usual, i was walking home just now... Plugging the earpiece into my ear and i was listening to the songs of Light of the City album. As i was listening, i began to start singing along with the worship songs and worship God in the nice cool breeze. I could sense the presence of God that flows so gently surrounding me.

Just now, i was reading the book of Joshua. Josh 1:6-9.
This sentence of command that God told joshua really caught me... In the 4 verses, God repeated 3 times...
"... Be strong and of good courage..."
"... Only be strong and very courageous..."
"Have i not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

This week, a time of challenges in my faith and heart... Yes, i want to be so strong and courageous!

This friday's Bedazzled is gonna be so big and an important event for us. 3 days to get everything done... other than be strong and be courages... FAITH!!

{ 2:12:00 AM }

Monday, December 22, 2008.

7 days to 21 YEARS OLD!!!!!!

{ 2:42:00 AM }

kuda kepang

This afternoon, i was walking home. On my way home, i saw a big crowd gathering at a very big space between the blocks. It's like a performance.. so i joined in and watched. As i watched it, it was getting rather scary. It's a group of malays doing some dances, but with some spirit inside them. It's call Kuda Kepang.

I did a research and found what is it all about...

Kuda kepang is a dance or game performed by Johoreans, especially of Javanese descent. Kuda kepang is a legless horse-shaped puppet that is straddled by the performers. Usually, a troupe of performers consists of 10 to 15 people. It is performed at wedding ceremonies and cultural celebrations. There are several possible origins of Kuda Kepang. It is said to derive from the struggles of “Wali Songo”, a group of nine Islamic preachers in Java. Others said it originated from the movement of horses commanded by Ali, the fourth Muslim Caliph. There are several dance rhythms or patterns: the 'Sola', 'Selendang', 'Pak Tani', 'Pucuk Rebung', 'Perjuangan', and 'Mempertahankan Diri'. The bobbing movement of the performers and their horse puppet is called 'Lenggang Kiprah'.

The musical instruments used in kuda kepang performance are 'angklong', 'gendang', 'gong', 'kinong', 'jidor', 'soron kecil' and 'bonang'.

i didn't take any video of it but i found some from youtube...
Do not look at the videos if you have a weak heart.



-Licking of hot charcoal-



-Eating of Glass-




Popular as part of the Malay culture, the dance can be seen usually during special events like weddings or opening ceremonies and is usually accompanied with the soft melodies of the Gamelan. Usually, the performance would involve the participants to dance around with a cutout of a horse, akin to riding that said horse.

However, a more mystic side of Kuda Kepang seems to be on the rise these days, after a dwindling of it for the past few years. Instead of just harnessing the powers of the human body, other ‘external’ forces from the ‘other’ world were called on to make the performance a more intriguing one.

What struck me is how unlike a human the participants are once they are in a trance-like state, and instead they seem to have taken on a persona akin to a horse’s (or a rider’s?). It is widely said that they are possessed by some spirits called on by the leaders of the group (the one wielding the whip).

Even though these spiritually-enhanced dances are performed by Malays, Islam does not condone these performances and it is in fact, Syirik (forbidden) as they call on powers other than that of Allah s.w.t. .

wanna see more...
click here

As i walk passed that land just now, i can't help but begin to pray in tongues for that land.

{ 1:42:00 AM }

Saturday, December 20, 2008.

My Sudden Misses -

CHEERLEADING...

{ 3:59:00 AM }

Friday, December 19, 2008.

Since my birthday is coming, i shall blog about my wishlist already... hehe!

1. Samsung Omnia 8Gb/Sony Ericsson Xperia
2. More nice clothes
3. More bags (leather, no soft cloth bag pls)
4. Ed hardy jacket & nice hoodie jacket
5. Crumpler bag
6. External hardisk
7. Bling bling belts
8. Accessories (Necklace, bracelet, earrings.. etc..)

place i want to go:
1. Sentosa
2. Overseas

... So far like this.. more to update.
:DD

PS. the wishlist at e side not updated de.

{ 12:11:00 PM }

It's FRIDAY again!!!!
Yay!!!!
this whole week and next week is filled...

What is up this week?
Mon: went shopping for clothes with some choir friends.
Tue: PM/choir prac
Wed: cogls meeting to discuss abt x'mas and cg outreach.
Thu: Dinner with friends & cg
Fri: shopping with nini to buy b'day presents
Sat: 930am-see function rm @ simei; 1pm-cg @ pasir ris; service
Sun: Serving for service

Next week?
Mon: work on B'dazzled
Tue: work on B'dazzled
Wed: X'mas eve
Thu: X'mas
Fri: B'dazzled
Sat: Service
Sunday: Rehearsal for dialect cny drama

6 more days to X'mas!!
10 more days to my 21st Birthday!!!

{ 11:43:00 AM }

如果能在一起

如果能在一起 - 梁静茹

夕阳快消失了
像一颗心沉入海底
投入灼热的光影

对话都结束了
胸口的悸动还没停
今天我更喜欢你

好想独占这距离
你的小心我的呼吸
谁会先鼓起勇气

如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的你的孩子气
和笑眯眯陪我未来的风雨
如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的我的好心情
心电感应让所有的心愿不怕来不及

人群都散去了
你鼻尖微湿的汗滴
蒸发在我的体温

好想独占这距离
你的小心我的呼吸
谁会先鼓起勇气

如果我们能在一起
你的天使会比以前爱美丽
会更美丽就像函馆的夜景
如果我们能在一起
唱一首歌会比以前有感情
心有灵犀就连太平洋也静静在聆听

如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的你的孩子气
和笑眯眯陪我未来的风雨
如果我们能在一起
我只想此刻的我的好心情
心电感应让所有的心愿不怕来不及
如果我们能在一起
你的天使会比以前爱美丽
会更美丽就像函馆的夜景
如果我们能在一起
唱一首歌会比以前有感情
心有灵犀就连太平洋也静静在聆听

{ 1:23:00 AM }

Thursday, December 18, 2008.

It's another new day!

It's a new morning! and it's thursday...!
Not knowing what challenges will i meet in my work today...

Sometimes at work, things keep going wrong.. and it's pretty discouraging.
but i know it will be over and i will overcome.

Yesterday, as i was walking home in the midnight. I thought of God. I begin to hum a song and worship Him. "Come Holy Spirit, fall on me now..." It was great! I know that He's always with me.. and nothing can compare to the place where i can see Him face to face.

My skin is getting rather bad these days...
I still need more sleep.........

What's with the chlorine-mopped floor???
it stinks and hurts... :O

:))

{ 7:28:00 AM }

Wednesday, December 17, 2008.

Morning thoughts

I wake up every morning with the same thoughts and feelings...
tired...

Life after i have started working is tiring. Partly because it has taken up most of my time and i still trying to balance it with other things in my life. I have so much that i want to do. I am just getting very bad at balancing my life. Maybe i am a high S and so i do need a lot of time to adapt changes. I should be seeking this SUPPORT & STRENGTH, if not everything is going to be so hard going. There is really a need for my capacity to get larger.

Everyday, i'm really counting down to the end of my current job. I do enjoy it. But i need more time to find and go back to this passion that i think i am losing after SOT.

"Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers."

My soul needs to prosper. I don't mind being busy, yet happy at the same time. Do the things that i love to do.

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when the desire comes, it is a tree of life."

I have so much hopes and dreams. Sometime it does make my heart sick of wanting to do them all but can't. Learn to rely on God, instead of trying to do it on my own. Last week we had a cogl meeting. A sentence that shalynne shared really hit me... The Holy Spirit should be the one doing all these things, not you.. so don't try to do it yourself.

Recently, i have been talking a lot about him. yea.. just can't stop talking about this person. Some of my closer friends will know... I realised that i have becoming more open to share.. to my close friends. Hoping... working for it... still on my own. Can i learn to pray for it and let God do the work? haha!

:))

{ 7:52:00 AM }

Tuesday, December 16, 2008.

New jacket!!! Preeeeettaye!!
Some people say look like qi pao...
but who cares!!
:DD

{ 1:35:00 AM }

Sunday, December 14, 2008.

i am happy today!!

1) back to expo
2) get to meet some lovely friends in expo choir
3) 8 friends today for cg and are going potential

Sian-zation:

1) Under the hot sun, i got lost while walking to amanda's condo in the afternoon. I reached her house, perspire just SPILLED OUT.
2) Reese in changi airport is OUT OF STOCK.

{ 2:43:00 AM }

To my lovely...

my amazing dearest. How have you been? This few weeks and months or so, i have been thinking of you. Not seeing you, i begin to recall how precious you're to me and everyone.

I remember...
From the day that i knew you. That very first time we sat down together in Mcdonald in the late night.

I remember...
that few odds months. The uncertainty that we had as we go through it together. you inspired me. We work hard together. We love people together. We support one another. We was weary but we'd gone through it. We was satisfied. We was filled. We had fun. We had laughter. We had tears. We had seen each other lovely side. We had seen each other unlovely side too. We had seen the strong side. We had seen the weak side.

I remember...
On the very last moment... We had so much in our hearts overflowing which words cannot expressed the feelings. We screamed. We hold our hands tight together. We teared. We sang. We hugged. We were overjoyed. We were sad too.

Those moments were the days we had together.

Right now...
Everything's back to normal. Life is stress and difficult. I too falter and grow weary, but i know i want to keep on going. How about you? We have come so far... I want to go further. where are you heading next? i know it's not easy to keep on climbing... it seems so so long. but that's the only finishing line i want to go. how about you?

I really hope for the good to happen. I really miss you. I really love you. and so is everyone.

dedicate to you, my lovely...

:)

{ 1:44:00 AM }

Saturday, December 13, 2008.

Like finally im getting my clothes.. my first ever online shopping!!

Hi Candice, you have selected for self-collection. Will contact you in the morning to arrange for a meetup.

To thank you for your patience and understanding, we will like to offer you a 15% discount. The amount is therefore $45.90.

Regards.

Wendy - xxxxxxxx
just4U
www.just4u.appee.com

Anyway, why did i go and select self-collection when they can send it to me by post?? haiya....

adam: u too free lah

:X

{ 3:00:00 AM }

Friday, December 12, 2008.

Friend,
your existence really hurts me. I really don't need you and you know that i hate you. You hide your way through as you look for me. Why do you want to bring your cliques along and cause me deeper hurts.

When you are here, i can't live out my best. I tried to hide you, but you are just so stubborn to want to make yourself known.

I want to draw a line between us. Did you get my message?

(pimple)

:((


Yea... Weekend is coming!!!!

{ 12:30:00 AM }

Thursday, December 11, 2008.

The usual place

I'm going back to EXPO!!!!!!!

{ 7:49:00 AM }

I love jurong point

I am loving Jurong Point!

Today i went to JP... To my surprise, the extended one has open already!!!! Omgoat.. It's really super big! Now jp is twice the size of the old one. Many of my favourite shops like Artbox, Hurs, minitoons... etc... are there... and also great food are there too! So heavenly!! I am so gonna shop like crazy there already...!

{ 1:30:00 AM }

Wednesday, December 10, 2008.

I am seriously thinking of going back to study this year...
thinking through... i really prefer to be in school at least for now.
working is definitely tiring.

December.. holiday season... People around me are going overseas for holiday or have already went. I also want can......! i so wanna get out of singapore!

Anyway, today night was wonderful because of choir prac... i really love choir and to be in choir. finished learning all the Christmas carols.. gonna sing for christmas!

:DD

{ 12:45:00 AM }

Tuesday, December 09, 2008.

A long weekend has ended... Gonna to have work tomorrow again! :((
I think i haven't sleep enough yet...

Today, my cg had a very lazy afternoon...... We went to amanda house. Her mum cooked for us and we watched movie there together. While watching, still eating tidbits... after watching, we were still eating... sha's-made pizza!

After that i went to meet up with kexin... finally like get to meet her... went for xmas shopping at PS. She bought... I'm like still thinking what to buy and who to buy for? money...... haha..

:DD

I shall go sleep NOW!!!!

{ 1:35:00 AM }

Sunday, December 07, 2008.

I have made a whole lot of mistakes...
and i am still making it.
It's pretty discouraging...
but you know what, i will not look downwards.
i will lift my face up!

{ 2:41:00 AM }

Thursday, December 04, 2008.

Awwwww! today i missed like 3/4 of the Little Nonya show because of that interview at prudential... :((


I wasted my 1 1/2 hour there... because they're recruiting financial/insurance agent... something that i really really don't want!!! Roar!!!! but expected it la...

ALSO...!

{ 12:36:00 AM }

Wednesday, December 03, 2008.

And yea!
Right now, i am more insipred to write longer post...
So guys, no more complains ok??

:DD

i shall go sleep nowww!!!! Yes, NOW!!!!

{ 2:22:00 AM }

We're loving facebook??

What is going on in facebook?

see this...
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=1112683&id=510844820#/photo.php?pid=1112683&op=1&o=global&view=global&subj=746457986&id=510844820

lols!

I am amazed by how choir people can talk and talk and talk with one photo or rather a poster.
It just reminded me of Gusto last time. Gusto used to flood friendster with comments. Now...... Choir flooded the facebook with comments... lols! I can wake up in the morning and see 60 plus of emails and notifications... it continues throughout the day. by the end of the day... 100 plus altogether??? it doesn't happen in just this 1 photo... but any photo that is posted up by us.
hahahhaa!

Anyway, we had a late night meeting with MJ on the HOPE workshop thing. It's december, a season to really reach out to our friends. I really need God to open up my eyes wide wide to see that harvest... Awwww...! I am counting and considering which friends to reach out.

It's 3rd December... and i am turning 21 years old in 26 days! Like finally... It's going to be another year older and i think it's an special age. so much to expect from myself as i see myself going to be 21 years old. greater wisdom, maturity... supernatural ones... yea i hope for all these which come from God. Being young is good. i want to be young and look younger and younger as time goes on. but in the way i carry myself and doing things, let it be more mature... This is what i really want...

Spiritually... more closer to God!!
Materially... earn more money!
Friendship... All these really good and close friends that i have, they will be for the rest of my life.
Relationship... Find a guy that i like and he likes me. it's not easy la...
Family... Mum's salvation.

Present for this year! Sony Ericsson XPERIA!!
OKkk, i am hard to maintain. hahaha!!
:DD

BUT RIGHT NOW CAN I HAVE THIS??

AND THESE ARE SO CUUUUTTTEEEE!
:DD

Feeling tired, but not crushed...

{ 1:19:00 AM }

Monday, December 01, 2008.

This morning (sunday), meiyin and i had planned to go for swimming... but it didn't happen... :(
all thanks to the dark heavy clouds that i saw as i woke up. sian... and i went back to sleep...
sorry ying!

So i went back to sleep.. hahhaha.. sleep until 2 plus pm and realised nobody at home!!! all of them had went out... :O but my bed is just so nice...! 3.30 pm then i decided to climb out of my bed... opppps! ate lunch at 4pm and nuah at home......
-.-

In the night, went to JW church for the drama/musical rehearsal... Justin came out with the whole script... a very family kind of storyline.. heartfelt... I believe it will gonna touch the hearts of the elderly in dialect church.
:DD




Oh man! It's 1 Dec already! This year really passes so fast... Just like Pst Tan had said during service... Next year will be the best year yet. I still want to end this year well. I felt that other than being in SOT, i didn't really breakthrough a lot this year... in spiritual life esp... after SOT, kinda become stagnant. I really must breakthrough in my prayer life and be more faithful in reading the Word! seriously, i haven't finish reading the whole bible for this year, even from SOT. ahhhhhh!

About a month ago, i wrote about e prophesy that mingyao gave me at the beginning of this year. Prophesy can be real... but it's still depend on myself if i'm willing to work hard to make this prophesy happen or not. it won't happen if you don't even work for it.. it may just pass by you.

And visions that i caught during SOT and the things that God has done in my life... I will remember! Never will i want to let it slip off my mind. The vision of excelling in marketplace, earning more money, be more fruitful in ministry and cellgroup, closer relationship with God... and my dreams and desires too, i want all of them to come to past! Eveything that i do, i want to bring Him glory!

not really there yet... but i really do believe because of this God that i serve!

:DD

{ 1:35:00 AM }