Thursday, February 25, 2010.

After going 4 days of morning & evening prayer meetings, i really feel recharged. Just as i take the step to connect with God once again, i could feel spiritually revived. After so long, i got to really take greater steps and decisions to get back the hunger, passion, fire and love for God.

Today as i went for evening prayer meeting, pst shared about when we have great boldness for God, we will believe for great things and do great things. I want to believe for breakthroughs in so many areas of my life. Although there are times i really feel down and lost, i still thank God for everything... for saving my life, changing me to be a better person, His love etc etc...!


9 MORE DAYS TO BKK!!!
with suee, ben & nai!!!!!!
super egg-cited can!!!!
I really pray that ben & nai will fly there with a healthy body la!
these 2 men are always sick... zzzzz! esp nai...
flying on saturday evening, coming back on tuesday morning...
:DDDDDDDDD

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Recently, this feeling just gets into me of really taking a break from everything that i really dread doing. so tiring... parents, cg...

the stuff from my parents are just never ending. mum keep on complaining about how bad are my brother, my father and i, complain about money, why her life so hard, we all don't love her. blah blah blah... dad keep on telling me to do this do that, at home i just did nothing. cold war with my mum. it's really tiring to hear all these again and again. i really tried my best to do housework at home. i do my own laundry, iron my brother, father and my own clothes... wash the dishes... stay at home more. but all they say is i never do anything at home. they questioned about my future, people earning big bucks at my age, and what i am doing. seriously...... -.-sometimes i feel like giving up on winning them over and in building a close relationship with them. but i just keep on reminding myself that it does not glorify God at all if i ever give up. who wants to have a bad relationship with our parents. and we won't be happy too. so i just really do my best, and let God do the rest bah! :)

Cg... i just feel so tired from everything... being a connect group leader, follow ups... hasn't been feeling excited of going cgms... i ponder and ponder over and over again. really wanted to let go everything on my hand and take a break. not away from church, but away from all the responsibilities. take time to just love God and connect to Him once again. to get back the love and passion in doing all these things. but couldnt make the decision whether it's right or not. SIGH! tired......

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Sunday, February 07, 2010.

seriously, so many events coming up which i am so looking forward!!!

as usual tuesday choir prac! i always look forward to choir prac every week!
pedicure & manicure with my babe blythe!
hopefully a gathering with my close choir friends before CNY! nua at somebody's house or sentosa!
CNY!!! hahahaa all the MOOLAHSSSS, steamboat food & gatherings with my relatives!!!
CNY lunch at justin's house!
BKK with love blythe, ben & nai!!!!! ahhhhh 27 more days!!!! funny combi... i wonder what will happen when we are going stay tgt for 4 days too.... lalala~

so far like that la...

i had been through a year of down-ness last year. i didn't guard my heart properly, attacks from the devil came, many things happen, struggle alot emotionally here and there even i could appear fine on the outside. i also dont know how many times i really prayed up and read the bible last year. probably if i remember, i can use my 2 hands to count. This year, i didnt let it start right also... but i really gotta make a decision this year, that i want to move forward and not stay at where i am! pass this stage of testing in my life, and really move forward! become more spiritually and confident! get on with my goal card! i wanna overcome things that have been holding me back!! :DDDDD wanna SMILE from the inside of my heart!!!!!!

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Tuesday, February 02, 2010.

Woman

God’s greatest creation : The Woman.

When God was creating woman, he was working late on the 6th day.

An angel came by and said, ” Why spend so much time on that one? “


And the Lord answered.

Have you seen all this specifications thats has to meet to shape her?

SHE MUST BE WASHABLE BUT NOT MADE OF PLASTIC,HAVE MORE THAN 200 MOVING PART WHICH ALL MUST BE REPLACEABLE AND SHE MUST FUCTION ON ALL KINDS OF FOOD, SHE MUST BE ABLE TO EMBRACE SEVERAL KIDS AT THE SAME TIME, GIVE A HUG THAT CAN HEALM ANY THING FROM BRUISHED KNEE TO BROKEN HEART AND SHE MUST DO ALL THIS WITH ONLY TWO HANDS.

The angel was impressed : How can she do all this with only 2 hands ans asked,

” Impossible! Is this the standard model? ”

“ Its too much work for today, wait til tmr and then complete her “

” I will not, ” Said the Lord.


” I am closer to complete this creation, which will be the favourite of my heart. “

“SHE CARES HERSELF WHEN SICK AND SHE CAN WORK 18 HOURS A DAY”.

The angel came closer and touch the woman and said,

" BUT YOU HAVE MADE HER SO SOFT LORD. "

" She is soft, " said the Lord.

“BUT I HAVE ALSO MADE HER STONG.YOU CAN NOT IMAGINE WHAT SHE CAN ENDURE AND OVER COME.

” Can she think? “
the Angel asked.

THE LORD ANSWERED.

“NOT ONLY CAN SHE THINK,SHE CAREASON AND NEGOTIATE”.

The angel touched the woman’s cheek.
“LORD, IT SEEMS THIS CREATION IS LEAKING! “
“YOU HAVE PUTTED SO MANY BURDEN ON HER”.

“SHE IS NOT LEAKING……..
IT’S A TEAR”
The Lord corrected her.

“WHATS IT FOR ?”
ASKED THE ANGEL.

AND THE LORD SAID.
“TEARS ARE HER WAY OF EXPRESSINGGRIEF, HER DOUBTS,HER LOVE ,HER LONLINESS,HER SUFFERING AND HER PRIDE”.

THIS MADE A BIG IMPERASSION ON THE ANGEL.
“LORD YOU ARE GENIUS”.

“YOU THOUGHT OF EVERY THINGS.THE WOMAN IS INDEED MARVELLOUS!”

INDEED SHE IS!

WOMAN HAS STRENGTHS THAT AMAZES MAN. SHE CAN HANDLE,TROUBLE,AND CARRY HEAVY BURDENS,SHE HOLDS HAPPINESS,LOVE AND OPINIONS.

SHE SMILES,WHEN SHE FEELS LIKE SCREAMING,SHE SINGS WHEN SHE FEELS LIKE CRYING,CRYS WHEN SHE IS HAPPY AND LAUGHS WHEN SHE IS AFRAID.

SHE FIGHTS FOR WHAT SHE BELIVES IN, STANDS UP AGAINST INJUSTICE,SHE DOES NOT TAKE “NO”FOR AN ANSWER,WHEN SHE SEES SOLUTION.SHE GIVE HERSELF SO HER FAMILY CAN THRIVES,SHE TAKES HER FRIENDS TO THE DOCTORS IF SHE AFRAID
HER LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL.

SHE CRIES WHEN HER KID ARE VICTORIUS,SHE IS HAPPY WHE HER FRIENDS DO WELL.SHE GLADS WHEN SHE HEARS OF A BIRTH OR WEDDING.

HER HEART BROKEN WHEN A NEXT OF KIN OR FRIEND DIES BUT SHE FINDS THESTRENGTH TO GET ON WITH LIFE.

SHE KNOWS THAT A KISS AND AHUG CAN HEAL A BROKEN HEART.

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