Tuesday, September 29, 2009.

i think i didn't owe you anything......
so why you just keep giving me this kind of face...
:(

{ 11:39:00 PM }

Monday, September 28, 2009.

wonders who is that in Keppel Bay Pte Ltd (shkeppls) using Mac book to view my blog for 6 times....
wahahaha!
:X

{ 1:07:00 PM }

Today i really had a great time serving choir in s4. The atmosphere was really good and high. Especially when serving on stage with the rest of the choir members, everyone really gave their best in energy and smile. Part of it was because PK wanted the service to be really good and strong in the atmosphere, therefore many choir members were called to come down and serve.

i really love serving in choir and being in part of this family. I have alrdy see myself improve from the first time i step into choir until now... in terms of singing techniques, countenance, make-up, dressing, energy and stuff.... but still got more rooms to improve. Talking about, of what laopa shared with us this afternoon, somehow our proffessional and discipline level is still lacking way behind. i believe when it comes to discipline and being mature as we serve God, this should be our lifestyle.. no matter which areas we are serving. We all just need to improve so much more and shouldn't take for granted for the chance to be able to serve on stage.

I can still remember last week, this revelation was shared. i really felt inspired and touched by that. Between the congregration and the stage, there is this line. Only those who are being chosen by God can cross this line to be on the stage to minister the presence of God. so true~~~
:DDDDD

After serving today, we had lunch together... went to fareast and walk around. i so so wanted to stay throughout with all of them... suee, rubez, justin, kenneth, nai, aaron, joseph.... (dequan left earlier) but i gotta go for jasmine birthday celebration. it was a blast to see jasmine totally so pretty today. hehehe! Her sexy pink low cut dress. wooooo~

Anyway, recently i just don't feel quite good. it believe it's my heart issue. Alot of negative thoughts, fears, self-esteem problems set in.. lost of trust and faith and passion... tiredness, doubts... all this things didn't come into me so strongly before... God is searching and moulding this heart of mine. when i see things that i treasure and love are falling apart and leaving me just because of my heart. it's definitely painful, and i have already lost track of the no. of times that my tears fell. There are times that it just get me more afraid and lost. I need God even more... I need my close friends... I need my cg members... I need my family... I really need all of them to keep me going. I really hate myself for being in such silence when im with people now. i really want to crap, talk, and inspire people so freely.. not bounded by any fear that holds me back from my speech.
Breakthrough and change!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

{ 1:20:00 AM }

Thursday, September 24, 2009.

finally my blog layout is back niceeeee!
the host of all the pictures in my blog had problem.
i managed to rectify it!
:)

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Tuesday, September 22, 2009.

yesterday night went to ben's house for mahjong session!
laopa taught me!
sorry laopa, i was too tired to really go and think for the game.. you were like playing for me instead! haaaaa! -.-

we slept at 6am until 1 or 2pm.
went to ion to meet kiong and wilma for lunch at swensen.
then we went down to mich's grandma wake.

i enjoyed myself,
but so tired and chui...
ESP MY FACE!!!
so many pimples popped out!!!!!
:(((((
SAD-DED!!

{ 1:12:00 AM }

Friday, September 18, 2009.

Wishlist!!! :D

Muhahahaha!!!
Just updated my wishlist here in my blog....

for those who don't see it,
it's at the column at the right side of my page where all tagboard, links etc are!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDD

{ 11:46:00 AM }

Wednesday, September 16, 2009.

Losing everything at the same time is the scariest, as well as the most liberating experience you can have. When you have something, or anything, you've got to protect it from disappearing. And so worry becomes a resident in your heart. When you've got nothing, your heart overflows with gratitude for every offering you receive.


How true it is......

{ 11:50:00 PM }

How long more will it takes for all these to change?
my heart.
my faith.
my trust.
my relationships.
my thoughts.
my fears.
my insecurities.

I need You more.
His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.

{ 7:35:00 AM }

Saturday, September 12, 2009.

i love angela!!!
love her to the max!
:D

and a wonderful boss,
emmanuel!!!
who always being super duper S.
i think more S than me la...
zzzzzz
always tell me: it's ok la....
:DDDDD

{ 9:45:00 AM }

Tuesday, September 08, 2009.

Heart is heavy...
i thank God for angela...
she is such a loveeeeee!
for being there to listen to me.
:DDDDD

Work.
i know my weaknesses,
i will try my best to be more disciplined.

yet...
it doesn't make me feel good about this person.
Woke up in the morning,
the first thing you see in fb,
someone wrote something and probably is about you.
my friend and a leader whom i respect.

your sentence,
i ponder greatly of what's the meaning behind it.
your words,
your expression shows everything.
Low EQ?
like what had happened that time...?

haaaaa...
i really have nothing to say to you....

{ 12:19:00 AM }

Saturday, September 05, 2009.

Tired.

Why did i cry again?
shucks.

i thought i had get over it,
but i still haven't.
:(

was i supposed to be there?
who told me to go there?
i turned around and i saw no one.
you have been on another side all along.
i was left here.

when i was afraid, i needed a hand too.

{ 12:46:00 AM }

Tuesday, September 01, 2009.

Heart of Worship

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath


i sang.
i worshiped.
i prayed.
i cried.
after so long...

{ 1:03:00 AM }