Saturday, February 28, 2009.

I went to watch He's Just Not That Into You with cass this afternoon. The day before, i was watching Marley and Me with the dancers and some choir pple.

i really think that He's Just Not That Into You is really a nice show. Probably there's no peak in that movie, a little draggy... but it's a story that most of us can relate to. no matter a guy or a lady, it shows how people want to find someone to love them and someone they can love. people around me keep questioning that why the person that they like, just can't seem to have the mutual feelings...

The exception... the rule... If a guy doesn't call you, he won't call... are some phrases or sentences i got it in the movie. The movie shows ladies having difficulties, repeatedly misinterprets the signs that men give her about their level of interest in her, etc...

It has come to a season now when many of my friends around me are troubled at finding a bf or gf. we all have been talking about it. Pastor kong is already in the midst of relationship series. all the past match-making sessions, words and urging by pst.. many got attached, and even more still remain single. what's wrong? will all these be solved by knowing all the needs of the opposite sex and apply on it? it's probably not so easy.

this movie did got me thinking of what happens to me before until now. all the crushes, all the sets of things that i probably will do when i like someone, yea countless unintentionally confessions too... and all the time it ends up to be heartbrokens and embarressments moments. i always let go and move on fast. all these are just crushes or someone i like. probably the only cry buckets i have was the one relationship couple of years back. I had a dream yesterday was really a nightmare i think.

The song, Way Back Into Love, which i just posted it up. A really nice song, i really love it. beautiful melody, beautiful lyrics. "I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but I just don't see the sign."

What do i want to be? The exception or the rule? NAHHHH....

i may not be hot, pretty, fun or whatever.
but i will do everything that i can do.
there'll be someone out there...

:))

{ 2:09:00 AM }

Thursday, February 26, 2009.

Way back into love

[Verse 1]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Ooo hooow

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something from my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

{ 3:47:00 AM }

Yay!!! IM BACK from china & macau!!!
Spent a lot of money on shopping!!!!
ALOT....
oppppSsss!
:DD

{ 2:58:00 AM }

Sunday, February 22, 2009.

Holiday here i come!

YEAYEAYEA!!!!
i'll be going to macau for holiday with my family on sunday, and i will be back on wed night!!!

:DDD

{ 3:02:00 AM }

Friday, February 20, 2009.

Singing kakis...

Yea, jasper and i had a very last minute decision yesterday night for a singing session today. we began to jio jio jio people. So in the end, there were 5 pple who went this afternoon. jasper, thomas, kenny (new choir member), cherlyn (my member, choir also) and me... We went to the chinatown $10 family ktv club. This is the 2nd group of people i brought there. so far, i heard good feedbacks about the ktv from all of them. Personally, i really like that place. Cheap!! $10 only! free flow of drinks.. fake sharkfin soup, it taste quite gd... haha! So we crazily sang for 5 hours, from 2-7pm.

Oh ya.. i didn't mention.. before ktv session, we actually sat down at one of the foodstall at the chinatown street, wanted to eat something. I was like going to order a plate of wanton mee... good thing a voice came, "you never ask how much is it..." OK!! so i asked! to my horror horror surprise, it's like..... $6!!!! omgoat!! Thank God i asked how much was it... if not i will be happily eating the noodle and no anti-shock after that...

We had very nice porridge for dinner.. and after that we went to vivo city to sit down and chat... Had a nice fellowship with them!!!

world is so small that joseph choo actually appeared there... haha..

:DD

{ 1:45:00 AM }

Wednesday, February 18, 2009.

Today was having dinner together with the choir peeps.. jia jia was sharing about a John Bevere's book saying regarding eternal judgement day. God will call those whom He knew to be ones who have fulfil His calling... The rest who doesn't, perhaps God will say 'I don't know you..." Some people can be a Christian, faithful.. yet keep on sinning, not fulfilling God's calling. perhaps in the end God will not know them and doesn't accept them to Him on the day of judgement. The shock in their faces...

The things that we do now, are we doing out of our own pleasure and interest? or are we doing in His calling for us?

It's time to seek Him...

{ 2:16:00 AM }

Tuesday, February 17, 2009.

我很感谢神，也很庆幸我有那么多关心我的朋友。总是留下了贴心，鼓励的留言。。。谢谢你们！
:))

{ 3:45:00 PM }

我感到不知所措。
怎么爬都爬不到。。。
怎么翻都翻不开。。。

心理的沉重。
我真的需要突破！
几时呢？

{ 1:17:00 AM }

I am rather angry and disappointed by first your words and then your reaction....
YES I AM!!!!!

算了！

{ 12:47:00 AM }

Monday, February 16, 2009.

I have finally ended my work contract last friday!
it's a joy since i can rest more and catch up with more stuff...
Worry is the $$$$...

Yesterday it's a nice catch up session with my lovely girls... 4 of us went to shop around at town and catch a movie, Benjamin Button. It's quite a nice show, deep and long love story which you can't find it happen in reality. Then after the show, we chilled out at mac. it's the only place you can still find open at 10pm. We talked and talked and talked. Enjoyed!!! oh ya... we were saying yesterday that we just can't anyhow go out with any person at town.. certain places like hk cafe... you do not know who we will meet there... hahaha! because yesterday, every few steps we walked in cineleisure, you can find us waving at people. ya... we met a lot of our church pple there yesterday... Singapore is small indeed!

{ 1:05:00 PM }

Sunday, February 15, 2009.

I actually have quite a few friends got attached in this lovely dovey season...

CONGRATS TO MY CGL, SHALYNNE, OFFICIALLY GOT ATTACHED TO *ERMM ERMM*!!!!!!!

:))))

{ 9:54:00 AM }

i have never said this before in detail to anyone...
but sorry i really want to say this.
after 2 months, i still can't get over it, for my 21st birthday...

yes, a few presents from my good friends and cg.
a great time with my good friends.
and many wishes from my friends.

but apart from that...
no financial blessing (angpaos),
no present received which i have listed in my wishlist or at least more practical for me for now... (even small gifts),
no b'day card from cg,
no present from my parents,
no celebration from my family.
my mum even asked me to remember to put the candles myself that day.

jus this last time i vent it.
i will get over it after that...

{ 3:06:00 AM }

Friday, February 13, 2009.

我想应该又是心理另外一段无法显示出的感觉与言语。你有和我同样的心情吗？
心理藏着地是盼望。。。

{ 12:44:00 AM }

Thursday, February 12, 2009.

sleepyhead

i still failed to wake up for the morning prayer meeting in 3 out of 4 days...
T_T

{ 7:40:00 AM }

Paint Me In Your Sunshine

Paint me in your sunshine
Wake my sleepy eyes
Round me in your comfort
Stay with me for all of time

Reach your hand,
I'll follow
Darken clouds for your rays of hope

So paint me in your sunshine
Walk with me, stay by my side
Fill my head with stories
For love and war and glory

Reach your hand,
I'll follow
Light the path that will lead me home

Oh, oh, Home [x2]

One day the world will grow colder
Everything we've come to cherish crumbles
And only then will we turn back and remember your glow

Paint me in your sunshine
Leave the part of you behind
Tell me where I'll find you
And send me off to another day
Till we meet tomorrow

Reach your hand,
I'll follow
Hold me close till the day that I grow old

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh [x2]
Mm, Hmm, Hmm, Hmm [x2]

{ 12:31:00 AM }

Wednesday, February 11, 2009.

Yesterday we had a wonderful choir practice! it has been a month plus since we have choir practice. it was an unusual practice.. had games, orientation, introduction, appreciation session. Video was shown to the new batch of new choir members on how has the choir ministry formed and grew since the beginning. Not just a ministry grow, but many have grew up in choir.. like those who had gotten long service award yesterday.

It has been my passion to be in choir ministry and my love to sing.. and i think i did grew in choir. I can still remember the several auditions i went through until i am finally a choir member. I am in it for slightly more than 1 year already and more to go...... 3 years, 5 years, 10 years... i see myself going so far.

As i stay longer here and begin to serve more, i thank God for every experience in this ministry. The friends that i've made... i think the choir is the most liveliest and fashionable people! The opportunity to serve something different, like this cny dialect drama.

Choir is getting more and more like a family...

I do hear a lot of criticism about choir ministry from many people whom i know. like this ministry is...... the choir people are......

But i still...
LOVE THE CHOIR!!!

{ 2:38:00 PM }

Monday, February 09, 2009.

Dialect CNY drama, 爱无限, has finally come to an end! It's really a good experience.. Thought of how i get to join the team, the rehearsals upon rehearsals on sundays, the extra practices we had together as dancers, all the camwhere sessions, the dancers outings, the fellowship and dinner together as whole... etc... I really enjoyed! Though i know i still didn't really dance so well on the actual day, could have even better...

Yesterday was really a success, all the drillings on every actors, dancers and crews for the past few months... All of us really gave it all yesterday. We had a whole session of camwhore last evening after the whole drama ended. so many albums of photos are already in fb, some are still in processing... hands getting tired of tagging already! hahaha! Next, all of us went to have dinner together at Sketches at Robertson walk. All the yummy food, and the thrilling show that was played that kept all of us high and excited too! After dinner, some of us decided not to end the night soon. we shifted to just the outdoor outside. nice sofa, cooling weather, under a beautiful night sky... and had drinks together. The 挤牛奶 and chop chilli chop games kept all of us so high yesterday night.

I THANK GOD THAT MY MUM CAME FOR DIALECT SERVICE YESTERDAY!! She didn't respond to the altar call nor comment much about the service and drama.. but it is really ok. i really think that this is already a breakthrough, the fact that she stepped into the church and sat throughout for service. It's a good start! i guess that something did touched her heart yesterday! The presence and the atmosphere...

:))

{ 1:14:00 PM }

i don't want to entertain this kind of thoughts and feelings... but it keep coming my way...

{ 12:46:00 AM }

Sunday, February 08, 2009.

i feel like i am just not getting anywhere... i really want my life to be a shinier one. It used to be shiny and clean for several times. it used to be polished. but now it just feel like layer upon layer are covering it up. it's becoming unbreathable. probably, lights are becoming unreflectable from it already.

Today, i couldn't help it but i felt so far away. I kept wondering about that distance. i kept thinking about that stillness. I know i am not the better ones among all, and probably i am not a help to you in any way either. I don't have much talents. What do i really have in my hand, i ponder? You once trusted me, you once believed in me. I tried and i tried, not much really happen. Have you given up hope on me? That little seeds that could spring up to be a large tree is not really becoming a reality. i think i am starting to find no joy doing those things that are in my hands... The thought of letting go what i am still holding in my hands now. probably, i am doing it now aleardy.

And yea, my love bank is depleting since that day. Probably it's is going to use up very soon as i pour the love units upon pple around me, when i don't really feel much units credit in. it's getting abit tough these days from all the events that had brought my emotions down.

I really want to feel Your love... even more... so much more...

if you think that i am emo-ing, i am not. it just that under my foot are rocks and uneven patches, and just couldn't get into a smoother ground.

Those events are not really important, but rather...

i just need a break and a rest... a getaway trip too...
probably the upcoming macau trip is a good one...

:)

{ 2:06:00 AM }

Friday, February 06, 2009.

MY HEAD HURTS......

{ 1:17:00 AM }

Thursday, February 05, 2009.

Mortimer "Mo" Folchart (Brendan Fraser) and his 12-year-old daughter, Meggie (Eliza Bennett), share a passion for books. What they also share is an extraordinary gift for bringing characters from books to life when they read aloud. But there is a danger: when a character is brought to life from a book, a real person disappears into its pages.

On one of their trips to a secondhand book shop, Mo hears voices he hasn't heard for years, and when he locates the book they're coming from, it sends a shiver up his spine. It's Inkheart, a book filled with illustrations of medieval castles and strange creatures--a book he's been searching for since Meggie was three years old, when her mother, Resa (Sienna Guillory), vanished into its mystical world.

But Mo's plan to use the book to find and rescue Resa is thwarted when Capricorn (Andy Serkis), the evil villain of Inkheart, kidnaps Meggie and, discovering she has inherited her father's gift, demands that she bring his most powerful ally to life--the Shadow. Determined to rescue his daughter and send the fictional characters back where they belong, Mo assembles a small group of friends and family--some from the real world, some from the pages of books--and embarks on a daring and perilous journey to set things right.

Watched it today with cass, justin, lexx, ben & jasper.
A nice fantasy show.
3 1/2 stars over 5!

:DD

{ 1:25:00 AM }

4 more days!!!

爱无限

It has been a wonderful time being involved in this drama.. Every rehearsals, fellowships, outings within our own dancers, flooding fb with photos and saliva. The friends that i have made, opportunity to serve even more...

4 more days!!!

My mum is coming!!! PTL! I really pray she will not only enjoy the drama, but as she listen to the Word and being in the house of God, presence of God will touch and move heart.< :))

{ 12:22:00 AM }

Monday, February 02, 2009.

Sometimes thoughts are rather not in the right place.
doubts and fears settle in.
Those are the breathe of the devil, isn't it?

Reminder to myself:
Have faith in this Source of everything.
Remember the love of this Heavenly Father.
Seek this Strength.
Know that He is faithful.
Lean on the Spirit.
Listen to the voice.
He wants my time.

Don't forget...

:))

{ 9:53:00 PM }

让我

你爱使我苏醒重新来过
深切渴望能活在你手中
生命跟随你跳动　梦想因你而启动
所有一切交给你　好无保留

让我为你而活　　　让我为你而站立
永不放弃像你爱我　让我为你前进
我气息是你赎回　　如今单单属于你
活出你旨意的生命　改变世界为你转动

转动的梦想
实现着希望
我已看见永恒的光芒
光芒在　我心上
在世界绽放
让我为你照亮

{ 6:59:00 PM }

I am really a quality time and physical touch person....
loves to go out with group of friends who are very on.

if you know me.

therefore, i enjoyed today.

:))

{ 2:18:00 AM }