Sunday, July 31, 2005.

The presence and the peace of God during service today had really refreshed me and convict my heart to love God even more... It really blessed me so much.. Today's service was by Pst. Mike Connell.. He preached about changing in our lives; the need of letting go of our old ways.... If we really want to go up to another level, we really need to let go of our past.. bad experiences, hurts, old character, relationships etc.. take the step to turn to another direction and be willing to change... As pastor said, life involve making choices.. We need to make correct and great choices.. the consequences that we get are depends on what choices you made.. It's us who make the choices.. God always give us the choices to choose.. and we need to make the right choices... We ought to stand strong in the Lord, take the step of faith to move forward, focus on God... Also, we need to grow and go up to another level in our life, we need to confront the spiritual oppositions.. confess the Word of God..

Thus, God expects us to really grow, trust Him, and walk faithfully with Him.. for He's always so faithful... we, not living in complacency in every area of our lives but keep expecting more and greater breakthrough..... stand up in faith to face and overcome the devil and the circumstances.. letting go of our past and move forward... Nothing is impossible to him who believe right? YeAh... = )

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005.

Today, i went to church early for going to power house to spent time praying in the house of God... It's been a while since i went to power house to spent time in the presence of God.. Indeed, the atmosphere is really different compare praying in else where like home... I could really sense that the presence was so strong and able to draw so near to God... As i was in the power house, i began to read the word of God.. i still in the mist of catching up the church bible reading plan.. yeah! I just finished reading until around Job 6.. still got quite alot of chapters to catch up, but i believe and i want to really finish reading for this month of july... I was reading about the situations that Job went through.. He was going through difficult and pain times.. how he praise God and how he sinned... I know even we go through trials and tribulations, difficult times, still seek Him and trust in Him that he will provide a way for you.. he will give you strength... God is always faithful.. It's not easy of course.. but never think of turning your face away from God.. because He's always good...

Something to share.. Somehow i know i am not that close to God's presence recently... i realise as i reflect on how my walk with Him... i seems to have drifting further and further away from Him... My quiet time with Him has not been that consistent.. how sensitive i am towards God.. His voice.. Truly i am not really very sensitive... I love Him and i know i will never want to backslide and turn away from Him... Everytime, when i meet spiritual dryness, I will try very hard to press in to His presence.. get even more close to Him.. real enough i know my flesh is weak but my spirit is willing... My mind has been very distracted, not really very focus on the cross... I poured everything out to God as i prayed today at the power house.. Truly, i had a great time being in the house of God today...

After praying in the power house, stayed at cafe to study.. brought maths and uwos.. but end up studied uwos only... and not only that, i only got to study the beginning part of the first chapter... sian 1/2 .. lolx.. Then i went for bible study, started at 7.45... currently at victorious living.. finished lesson 6 already... today lesson was about deliverance... yeah... got to know more about deliverance.. Yeah!!! I realised that tomorrow is thursday already... i got uwos, maths and java test during the first 3 days of sch reopen... and yet i just started studying uwos only... I need to work hard le!!! = ]

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Sunday, July 17, 2005.

For these past weeks, it was really a break through for me... I began to draw even closer to God and love Him even more... For the 3 weeks, i had fasted for 24 hour on wednesday.. as a whole churh... t was really strtching and testing my resistance on temptations.. but i continue to remind myself i want to do it.. i am doing it for God, for the church, for the lost... God give me strength.. and break-fast, i did not really feel hungry, that i believe i can go even beyond 24 hour in fasting... Praise God!! Also, i went for 2 friday night of overnight prayer meeting... It too also stretched my capacity... prayed from 11pm to 5 am in the morning... I really thank God that my brother and i are allowed to go for the whole prayer meeting, after a few times that we only could go from 11pm to 2 am... so this time we could go for whole meeting.. I want to thank god lahz... We prayed and prayed... prayed for a lot of things...

There were a few times, i really can't take it that i was so tired... i was praying but my mind had already switch off... but i still kept on praying and i lasted until 5 am.. After it ended, i just could not feel tired at all... want to praise God and worship Him so much!

Yesterday cell group meeting 16/07/2005, i received my promotion to become OM!!! I am very so excited and happy about it until now!! I had waited for it for 1 year 8 months... finally! I will never forget this day... Right now, i can join choir ministry already!!! Yup! Also, now i work forward to MM!!!

Today, the day to pledge for The Arise & Build for church... God spoke to me that amount and i pledged.. I pray that God will help me that i am able to fulfill it for these 6 months... I want to give my precious to Him.. sacrificial... believe God would prosper me so much... Hallelujah!!!

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