Wednesday, December 29, 2004.

YeAh... I really had a wonderful & memorable birthday celebration with my brothers & sisters! =P They brought me to the pizza hut at suntec city to eat in the evening... After that, we walked around over there at the shopping... Later on, few of us walked over to the glimmering Esplanade... There were me, wan lin, yang xuan, kah keong, jia hui & john... The view there is always so beautiful... Sitting at the concrete bench alongside the river, the view at the other side was brightened... the ports... the planes in the air... the buildings... had lighted up the dim starless night... Hearing the crashing of the river water and enjoying the cooling breeze blowing gently over us... The whole atmosphere was 'romantic'... hahaz... It is not about the nice decoration at the esplanade that let me feel so great for the 'whole 'thing'... but is the accompaniment by my brothers & sisters... who you are with at the glamourous place... We, at there chatting serious & unserious matters... joking around... fellowshipping... Perhaps, this was the last few chance for me to be outside with the some present N239 members before they multiply... YeP.. = ) Time would not stay... This beautiful time would just be over... Till about 11+ pm, then we went home...

PS: Thanks all my brothers & sister who celebrated my birthday for me on 29th Dec
(kah keong, john, joey, carolyn, jiahui, shiting, wan lin, jenna. yang xuan, boon teck, lixin & joelle...)
and all who sent birthday messages through sms or what to me... GeEz... ^.^
WitH hUgS & kiSsEs... LoVe Ya aLL!!! (",)

{ 11:58:00 PM }

Sunday, December 26, 2004.

Hey!! X'mas day had just over!! I really had a super blessed x'mas!! I received quite alot of gifts... x'mas & birthday... The friday and saturaday x'mas service had also blessed me alot... the presence and the word of God... By seeing so many people received the altar call for both days & the whole stadium was jam packed with people... I felt so wonderful! But i was a little disappointed then... Initially i was bringing 2 friends to the saturday service, eldwin & dorothy... But on that morning, he told me that he had not slept for the whole night and he did not want to go... He went out for the whole night with his friends... Then, i kept calling and calling dorothy & sms her for the x'mas eve night and the next morning, wanting to contact her before we meet... but she just don't want to pick up my phone and didn't reply my sms... I just hate that!! They are not new friends but had came to church service before... It's ok that even though they did not come this time... I will keep following up with them... = )

After the service on x'mas eve... I went home with my brother and we reach home at about 1am... After receiving so many cards & gifts from some people i don't even thought of giving them anything before that... I knew i must finished doing my cards to give them... So i did the cards till about 4am... slept for only 3 hrs plus... slept until about 7.20... hahaz... overslept... I wanted to wake up at 6.45 but ended up ... Most of my friends also slept late the night before... They too also overslept... HeheZ... We went for the x'mas service... The dance was vibrant and mesmerizing... The drama was both hilarious and touching... definitely very nice!! Later we went Han's to fellowship and had our lunch.. Then we celebrated 3 people's birthday... Yi zhang, pei shan... and of course another is ME!! hahaz... =D Then few of us went to play arcade and pool... Yup... One amazing things was my brother and me slept for only few hours the night before... but we were not tired and sleepy AT ALL!! I stayed at my brother's room... chatted with him... spent time in each other presence until 4am again! However i slept until 1+ pm the next afternoon... hahaz... =P

{ 11:54:00 PM }

Monday, December 20, 2004.

I just don't know why i keep thinking of this person so much!! I can't like him... I can only and only treat him as a brother!!!

{ 1:27:00 AM }

Sunday, December 19, 2004.

Yah... I just came back from Genting... A nice and pleasant trip... it was because of the cool and fresh weather... i didn't go to the theme park to play but what i really had done was shopping... hahaz.. This was my purpose because x'mas is coming!! I have to buy gifts for some people lohz... = ) I really ate alot there... hmmm... should have gain weight over this few months... I did not really control my weight from the starting of my prelim exams till now... GeEz.. Just not really care about it rght now! =P

I just heard a good news and a bad news today... Good news is my brother's cell group, N239, is going to multiply in 2 weeks time... They are really fast... Just only 1 year, they multiply again... But some of them have to say "bye-bye" to one another already... Not in the same cell group... splitting into 2......... AND... ... Bad news is about my cell group... going to ...... *now i can't reveal what happen* (as brother mj have not announced to everyone yet..) I am just really sad to hear that it would be happening but i am not surprised at all... Few months ago during september, it was decided by bro mj that my cg should have been * ... but my cg didn't *... until now, i was told again this news... therefore i am not surprised at all... Since our cell group attendance have been so bad and it is not growing... So, would it better to * ... I really have tried hard to reach out for my friends, invite them for service, cell group meeting, camp, church events etc... But my friends are not open...only few came... I followed up with them and did my best... I think it's really ok to * ... Because whenever other brothers and sisters in church ask me what cg i am in... How do i answer them? CS cg? What's that cg?? yupz... So what to do now? Continue to invite my friends for the coming x'mas celebration at s'pore indoor stadium lohz.. hahaz!! (",)

{ 11:58:00 PM }

Friday, December 17, 2004.

yEaH!! I will be going to Genting for holiday on Friday morning to sunday... ExCiTeD!! =D aLL of ya... tAkE cArE oF yOuRsElf oH!!! i wiLL miSs yA aLL!!!! =P

{ 1:21:00 AM }

Wednesday, December 15, 2004.

I went to watch National Treasure with Carolyn, Joey and Kah Keong at PS... It's kah keong birthday today, so we went with him to watch movie... haHaZ.. =P Then later in the evening, i met wan lin at Jp to do my cg member birthday things... This time round for writing birthday msgs is a new idea, new tryout... We had bought a black sketch book and ....... gEeZ.. *sEcrEt*

Really PTL!! We will be having many new friends joining us for the captain ball game... Some will be coming for service... I just could visualise my cg form and is growing bigger & bigger... My cg is starting to have a break through... yAhz.. Really need to continue praying for it!

Oh nO!! I need a closer walk with God... I feel that i am drifting further from fellowshipping with Him... I desire to grow even more spiritual, to be rised up and move to another level of my spiritual life... A heart to do and serve even more for God and in my cell group... I hope to have a greater discerning spirit to hear the voice of Holy Spirit... Greater knowledge of the Word of God... Oh Lord!! I just want to be with you and to be where you are!!

YeAh!! I am going to Genting for holiday on this coming friday... Quite excited and happy... However, i would be missing alot of people and things... N239 and my cg brothers and sisters, service, cg meeting, fellowshipping, my cg leader, church etc... yEah... Perhaps the major thing i want to do at Genting is shopping! I need to do shopping for myself and buy x'mas gifts for some people... Yah loHz... = ) hEhEz... Anyone want me to buy anything??? =P

{ 11:11:00 PM }

Sunday, December 12, 2004.

Praise The Lord!! My cg is growing!! Although many of my cg members have been disallowed to come for cgm and service, i don't want to let my cg to continue to be so small... we grow from 7 to 9... Today got 8 people come for service when we always have 5 people... After the camp, i believe that my cg can grow even bigger...

I just want to share something.. I have been really wanting one of my friend to be saved.. So just few days before the camp, this friend sms me... Actually i lost contact with him before that, as there is one time i lost my hp and then lost all the contact numbers... So just on that day during the "rock-the-rim", he sms me just to chat... I was inviting my friends to the camp but no one can come... God is really a good God to give me this guy for me to reach out... He was the only one that agree to come for the camp among all that i had invited... Before the camp, he actually quite reluctant to come to church.. However, after the camp he agree to come to church... He haven't come to cgm or service yet but i believe soon he will!! I hope to see changes in him, his life... He will live his life for God...

I want to continue to reach out for my unbeliever friends... to see souls being added to the Kingdom of God...

{ 9:01:00 PM }

BREATHE
CITY HARVEST CHURCH

Worship

YOU ARE MY GOD
CLOSER TO ME
THAN THE AIR THAT I BREATHE
ALL THAT I AM
FORMED BY YOUR WORD
I WAS MADE IN YOUR HANDS

CAPTIVATED
BY YOUR BEAUTY
FALLING DEEPER IN YOU

BREATHE INTO MY SOUL
SPIRIT OF GOD
FILL MY LIFE
WITH YOUR PRESENCE

HIDE UNDER YOUR SHADOW
DWELL IN YOUR SECRET PLACE
IT'S YOU I LONG FOR
(TO REPEAT CHORUS)
IT'S YOU I LONG TO KNOW
(TO GO VERSE)

YOU ARE MY SONG
IN MY DARKEST NIGHT
I WILL SING OF YOUR DAWN
ALL OF MY DAYS
YOU FILLED MY LIFE
WITH MERCY AND GRACE

EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE
I WILL WAIT ON YOU
IN YOUR PRESENCE
MY HEART AND STRENGTH RENEWED
EVERY MOMENT I LIVE
I WILL WORSHIP YOU
YOU'VE SATURATED MY SOUL
MY HEART FLOWS
RIVERS OF LIVING WATER

{ 7:01:00 PM }

Friday, December 10, 2004.

I'm back!

This 3 days 2 night survivor camp at Aloha is really best!! The exciting games and activities that we played... The fun and energetic, full of vibrant youths... The outreach in this camp was quite successful.. i think... This camp really had impacted and touched many youth campers' lives, which let them wanted to turn over a new leaf, and become a better person... Many of the youths are not really living in a good way in life... Alot of them are smoking, don't really like to study etc... However, they have a good and open heart, which had let this youth camp to move them... Some mentioned that they wanted to continue studying and believe that their lives is not accidental but believe the great destiny in their lives... yeah!! That's just so wonderful...

Personally, i really enjoy this camp... It is better than last year's camp during december... It help me alot to be more opened to people there... both the helpers and the youths... I can get more closer to them and to know more about them... As a Christian for more than one year, I think i should have grew even more than before... I don't want to fear of things but i want to participate more during the camp... I speaked out when i had doubts, and give suggestions and ideas for games... I am not a newcomer that i do not know anyone.. but a member of CHC that i know most people there... Even though i do not know some people initially, but i would want to take the initiative to know them... I may be one of the youth campers, but in my heart i want to be like the helpers... to know the new friends... most of all what i want was to be involved in everything, and desire myself to be one who can be trusted and accountable for the things i was asked to do or help... yeAhz.. = )

{ 9:29:00 PM }