Wednesday, November 30, 2005.

Things i need to start doing:

1. Stop thinking about my negatives!
   
2. Don't get distracted so easily!
   
3. FOCUS on God!
   
4. Build a stronger prayer life!
   
5. Read Bible consistently!
   
6. Willing heart to try all things!
   
7. Stop thinking of this person!
   
8. Reach out to my classmates!
   

{ 5:14:00 PM }

Tuesday, November 29, 2005.

when is the time that i can get out of this hole? How long have i stuck down here and how deep have i gone? So long in here that i really cannot take it anymore... Time for me to move on? Time for me to really put away all the things and feelings that i am holding on... In my heart i kept.. Even here in blog, can i write everything here? Who is that friend that i can really pour out everything to? Who is there for me when i need someone? No one else but i can only find God alone..

There are so much so much i hope to do or i want to do... but i didn't... Time is losing fast... too fast so hard to catch up... There are too much i have not done.. till i do not know what to do right now.. so lost and tired to go on.. yet i still have to... I want a life so much that's fruitful not for myself but God.. yet i realise, how much fruits have i produce? Why is it that i am not doing anything can be so tired that i desire a break from that? Have i done a lot or have i done nothing at all? I don't even know how much work have i done or how hard am i trying to work?

I want to draw closer to God... because i am so far from Him... It's so hard but i choose to endure... A path that sometimes i may go so fast, sometimes i may go so slow, and sometimes i may stop and remain where i am.. but i will never choose to turn back.. but keep on going forward... Perhaps right now i had stop walking... and i need to take that step of faith to move forward, move on, continue, and start to walk again....

{ 8:49:00 PM }

I am sick.... having flu...... -_- '''

{ 10:30:00 AM }

Outta my mind!!!

What can i do with it?
just nothing...

hahas..

Telling myself DO NOT BE DISTRACTED!!! FOCUS!!

{ 1:19:00 AM }

Saturday, November 26, 2005.

Every moment, i think of Uu....
Don't kNow wHy...
i dOn't even know Uu...
yEt i aM reaLLy thinkiNg of Uu so much...

{ 2:12:00 AM }

Thursday, November 17, 2005.

i lUv Uu siS!!! i reaLLy wOrrY aBout U... i rEaLLy hOpE tO hAvE a rEaL fRiEnDsHiP w U, tHaT wE wiLL bE abLe tO sHaRe tHiNgS... n hAvE tRuSt...

Today had cheer training... There are about 1 month since i go training... But today only had meiping, yong jun and i, 3 people only... We apparently did nothing much.. only went jogging at school sports complex... I walked more than i run... hahaz...

ToMoRRoW iS fRidAy aGaiN... yUp... = ]

{ 11:16:00 PM }

Monday, November 14, 2005.

I need You... All i need is You Lord, is You Lord, all i need is You... I don't want to lose that first love for God... Everyday i want my heart to revive.. my mind to be renew & my spirit to be refreshed...

I also thinking... my guitar... not really playing well... Can i be able to make it to be the next cell group guitarist?? Can i? Haiz...

{ 11:58:00 PM }